26. Then God said, “Let us make man in our image, after our likeness.  And let them have dominion over the fish of the sea and over the birds of the heavens and over the livestock and over all the earth and over every creeping thing that creeps on the earth.  27.  So God created man in his own image in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them.

Genesis1: 1, 26-27

Did you ever wonder what happened before the earth was created?  Where was God? Where was his house, his backyard and his tool shed?  Ever wonder about things like that?  I do.  I think about God having so much time and power and infinite wisdom that in it all he was lonely.  He had a dream and a plan to make it all come true and make it all happen.  He wanted to create and implant his creative drive (the Holy Spirit) so that he could watch and experience something that was birth by him but flourished by you, combined bringing about something he can experience, something he never seen before produced by you.  If you are a singer? Sing a song, that he made just for you,so he can hear it for the first time.  If you dance, dance a dance that he never experienced seeing before because there is only one of you.  Play an instrument or preach a sermon, or write a book, or teach a student, and I can go on, you get the picture.

I was thinking in my mind God was yearning and aching to do something that would show off who he is.  Something he never heard, or seen but in great anticipation of discovering something he knew he would enjoy. I can just imagine it now.  He was relaxing and wanted to be in good company, I think he wanted to share and mingle in a way and not be lonely.  He may have fallin into a sleep and had a dream and it was to create us.  To create you.  H e dreamed of you!  And me!!  Everyone of us are uniquely, fearfully and wonderfully made.

14. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.  Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it well.

Psalms 139:14

I think I can say if I seen his dream it may have gone something like this.  He reached into his heart and made a copy and reached into his mind and grab a portion.  He dreamed up your face and imagined your hair and seen your future and wrote out the plan.  He is so excited to see you grow and to see you discover what he knows you can do.  And to do it with the intent to connect with your brothers and sisters.  To help the ones who are left behind and help them do what they are called to do.  To love like our daddy and to live life to the fullest.

So when you discover you were made by God and you have his DNA, you realize there is a home and a planned out destiny.  And when  God sings this song to you, you will be able to hear it. I know it is a women singing it but please search deep and listen and if you listen carefully you will hear God singing this to you.

At last, my love has come along
My lonely days are over
And life is like a song
Oh, yeah, at last
The skies above are blue
My heart was wrapped up in clovers
The night I looked at you
I found a dream that I could speak to
A dream that I can call my own
I found a thrill to rest my cheek to
A thrill that I have never known
Oh, yeah when you smile, you smile
Oh, and then the spell was cast
And here we are in heaven
For you are mine
At last

“That is why a man will leave his father and mother and be united with his wife, and the two will become one flesh.”

Ephesians 5:31

Become one?  How does a piece of flesh, a living organ become one?  Unite?  Two pieces of flesh combining together to make one? I am sure two different pieces uniquely it’s own soul but yes of course becoming one.  That is what God is saying here.  A man, A women joined becomes one.  Starting out different but along the way they start to adapt to one another but still flourishes into their own creative beings.  Each supply support and and fuel to help ignite each others personal callings but still function as one being!

A full functioning  living person (joined)does everything together.  Being intimate together, sharing love and every part of the process of  conceiving a new born child.  They share pain, they share joy, the share ever secret, every moment that was made for them to capture together.  They share goals and dreams and achievable triumphs together.  They share a habit, a routine and the journey of building their family empire of what was nothing to being a big something.

Then simply after years and years of this lifestyle being together in an instant it all changes, they become separated.  One alive now and the other dead.  For a  human body to have an organ fail and not work  throws the body in the state of shock.  Anyone who loose a body part and try to go back to normalcy after that is on a road of recovery no one else can replace the lost but the one and only true God.  No one else can say the right words, no one else can make it better.  The reality is that person is struggling to stay alive because they want to be dead just like their united half who is not separated.

Sometimes life is not fair.  Sometimes life does not go the way we plan it to go.  Sometimes we think being saved and delivered by the hand of God will bring us the fairy tale ending we so long for.  How is it that we find ourselves not satisfied with what we have and pursue more of what we don’t have.  I guess we have the DNA of the father in us to go  from glory to glory.

“Let Me Run”

By C. Apana

When I am in pain, let me run!

When I don’t understand let me run!

When life is not fair let me run!

When my world is falling apart let me run!

When it feels I am alone let me run!

When I have lost my best friend let me run!

When I have lost my lover let me run,

When everything around has gone, let me run,

When I have cried all I can let me run,

When I am broken and face down let me run,

When I feel disjoined let me run

Run where? Into the arms of the “one” whom can make me one again

I will run! I will hide! Under his shadow!

Into his Hiding place.

It has been almost 9 months since my Dad has passed away so much has changed but some stuff will always stay the same.  I have seen so many things that my eyes have been opened to that it was blinded to in the past.  I have discovered a new path in life, a new outlook.  Did my Dad’s death change things?  Yes it did.  Life is different now and a major shifting has taken place in my entire family.

Dad’s things are all still in the same place, not touched or moved, if it has been moved it goes right back to where it was.  Dust has collected on his desk and pencils and pens are dusty too.  His papers and files have been still, and only moves when the air conditioner comes on.  His calender is still up in his office and his markings are still there, small little yellow stick on tabs he would place so he wouldn’t forget a thing.  Mom’s Picture hangs above his desknext to the calender so he could look at her all day long as he worked.

Dad’s closet, oh how I love his closet.  His closet is slowly loosing his sent.  Still hanging there on a door hook is the last week set of clothes he wore and his shirts still hold his fragrance.  I would sometimes go in there to just “hug” his clothes, and close my eyes imagining I would be hugging him.  I would catch my mom once in a while with his shirt on just to smell his sent I think.  I wonder what she is thinking also.  In the bathroom his tooth brush and all his personal things are still in the same place, his cologne and wallet too.  All his medication is in the medicine cabinet and also more pictures of mom and the grand Kids.  I ruffle around and go through it now and then.

I think of my mom how her world has completely turned up side down.   All of us to the fullest effect, my mom more so.  I watched her the other day, and placed myself in her shoes.  What pain I could not even imagine.  Hurting as a wife and hurting as a daughter. Dad and her was with each other longer then his parents he would always tell us. I went back into time and seen how it must have been.  They met in high school and got married at 19 and started their lives.

Pain comes and goes but through it all our prayer is that God will be her hiding place, our hiding place.  We run and the only place we run to is to hide in his love, sometimes a love that we don’t understand but we need to trust him,so trust him and run to the secret place and hide for awhile maybe stay until you are ready to come out.  There is now where like it.  I promise I have been there and go often.

Clyde R. Vegas Sr

1949-2008

I am not sure if I can keep up with journaling my dreams as fast as they are coming now.  The dream that I had last night was very interesting.  However if you have been following my blog that was not always the case .

Before my Dad passed away I would have dreams every night.  Not one,  not two but three or more a night.  I would get up in the morning and jot down every detail from within my dreams.  I even got to the point where I would be mind conscious that I was having a dream in my dream and made sure I walked in my dream knowing it was a dream and needed to remember all the secrets God was hiding in it.  So when I awoke I could go back and remember everything that was taking place.

I would ask myself questions like, how did I feel in my dream and what colors are around me.  Who was in my dream to where I was.  Even in my dream I am thinking about nature and what looks weird around me.  I also listen to sounds and replay the dream back into my head so that I don’t forget it when I woke in the morning.  Also what kind of clothes I would be wearing to where I am going.  I feel we dreamers should pay close attention to everything in our dreams and look for those clues to some answers we need to search out.

Just about a month ago I did began to dream again and that was a sign to me that I must be healing from the death of my Dad.  I would dream about my Dad.  I would even have conversations in my dreams with my Dad.  But God speaking to me was some what a stand still because, all I could do was think of my Dad.  I kind of think it as my mind would be cleared God was able to speak to me.

So below was my dream.  What I did was highlight the interpetation in red so you can read.  Sorry I have been a bad blogger but bear with me.  Read the post again and

I invite you to come and follow me into my dream that I had one night and see what I see and hear.  How powerful and grand God is, take a look at this picture below and see God’s wonder and how Holy he is.  Holy Spirit who ever is reading this today I pray that they will experience you in such a way that they will reflect on who they are and whom they represent.  My question to you today..if no one goes with you, will you still follow Jesus.

I had a dream and it was definitely from the Lord. How do I know this? Because it was strange and it had a God flare to it.That night I was tired and I could not wait to settle in. Through out the entire night I was a little uneasy.

I prayed and called on the Holy Spirit to help me to settle my spirit. I looked at the clock and it was already hitting 3:00 am and I was so anxious to sleep because my mind was so tired.  So I give in or should I say gave up as I knew God wanted me to pray. So I did and in the middle of it I feel fast asleep.

The next morning it was a little rough because I needed to be up early to send Joshua and the rest of the Apana kids to school.

The baby went down for another early morning nap and Elly my other daughter was not up yet. The house was quiet and I just sat down, not even 5 minutes passed I was out in a very deep sleep.  Usually your second morning sleep is the best time for God to visit and speak in my dreams,and he did.  Below is my dream.

The wind was blowing and the sky was orange reddish. (this means to me an urgency-maybe not the end of the world kind of thing but and urgency for me and my husband that we needed to focus and press into the things of God even more then ever before- How do I know this?  I just felt it in in my spirit in my dream, it was kind of the fear of God feeling- a feeling like get ready something was about to come-the calm before the storm.  If you ever experienced that like I HAVE BACK IN 1992 WHEN WE road out a hurricane for 13 hours.  The calmness is scary) I could see in the distance a wheat field. This wheat field was not like your ordinary Wheat field, because each strand of wheat was planted separately in rolls about five feet apart. Throughout the field some wheat strands were standing straight up tall. (These wheat reminded me of people as I looked at them standing. In my dream I thought, “I am dreaming but why do I feel they are really people not wheat-the had the appearance of wheat but my spirit new it was people.) As the wind blew in they could not be moved. (The wind was blowing pretty hard, but these wheat were not even moving one bit, my hair was moving why not the wheat?) There were other wheat strands which were not standing tall in fact they were moving around like Bobble heads.  (This I did take a double look, because in my dream that is what I thought, bobble heads?-Again my spirit confirmed it was people-but then I did think harvest field? Which would be reaping in a harvest of souls or finances.)

I watched them almost looking life like people bobble heads which was aimlessly being tossed in the wind uncontrollably.   The other wheat strands stood upright, so stiff it was almost too nice, too perfect.  I looked beside me and it was my husband Joseph.  Both of us were looking at this wheat field together.  Then a loud thunderous sound echoed in the sky we turned towards the sound. (For most people I know, when they hear a sound that is life threatening they run-but me and my hubby ran towards it-this should give you an good idea of what kind of people we are. but also that go get’em spirit like, “Tell me where to go Lord I will follow.” Were we born like this? Maybe? but my dad and mom had a lot to do with it.)

I realized both of us were looking down at this wheat filed in side of this small valley.   We leaned over from this ridge and looked out into the sky-what a sight, it did feel real and a little frightening.  At the same time my husband and I  both began to hop over this ridge and took off running down towards  the wheat field.(We were curious and wanted more of what God was showing us.  Realizing as I am running!  Our Harvest! Our Harvest! We did it! but then as we got closer it was kind of strange)

In this wheat field it was so clean and the dirt was so smooth.  The wheat was way taller then us and like earlier I mentioned some were standing still and tall, and some were bobble heads.  The sky was still red and kind of errie.  But still at this time as all of this was happening I was thinking in my mind, why are the wheat bobbing like bobble heads? Kind of felt they were like people. (Again my spirit kept going back to these must be people?) All of a sudden from the left side in front of us opposite of the ridge we just ran down was another ridge and over it we could see a cloud moving fast approaching us.

It was further out over another ridge.  We could only see the sky but not the bottom of it’s tracks.  Almost like a truck blazing or a stampede of horses below, what it left behind looked like a trail of gold dust dissipating into the sky.  What was below we needed to see, but we needed to leave the field to climb over that other ridge to get a closer look.  We could only see the top half from where we stood.  The color of the clouds were like a gold dust twirling like a tornado laying down, the bigger part was the front and the smaller end was the back.

Joseph and I was attracted to the magnitude of this twirling clouds and the color was so amazing as it was coming towards us, we quickly ran towards the hill and climbed to the top and peeked over we could see a truck in side of this cloud pushing it’s way pass the harvest fields.  Joseph and I both looked at each other not even saying one word to one another we both jumped down into the cloud, no turning back and simply just went for it.  We jumped free falling into this blazing truck with a golden cloud wrapped around it.  Then suddenly everything went blank…The Lord woke me up.(This is what I felt the Lord was saying to us.  Sometimes we think we are in our harvest field but it is an illusion and it looks like a harvest but it wasnt.  Also we were around people who I felt was empty, who gave the appearance of being blessed from planting into a good soil but it was all fake, not real.

The bible does say they will know we are Christians by our love, it also says that they will also know that we are true Christians by our fruit!  Joseph and I were standing in a field with people who appeared to be real-but weren’t! The standing tall wheat were high nosed and know it all Christians-the “you owe me attitude!”  The other wheat were Christian who were empty.  They were like bobble heads, saying yes to everything being robots for the kingdom of God-just doing THINGS and not DOING IT  from the heart, and forgetting who is their true source.

Also when thinking about the soil  it was to perfect, kind of to clean.  I know in my house with all my children we know their is life because they are always around to show evidence of them being there- a toy, a shoe, a piece of a half eaten chip.  Life dwells there.  To perfect- means to me, man’s control, and interference with what God wants to do.

Moving on to my dream we then heard a sound, we both knew that sound( It was a sound of Heaven I think, a sound we liked to hear and feel-because of us worshiping together in our house it was a familiar sound.  A sound that we knew it was God fearing but calling us )  It connected with out spirit, (God was calling -the Holy Spirit was calling,) we both ran towards it and knew it was God, and we didn’t even think twice but we just jumped in.

This is a dream to me warning me to be careful of whom I connect myself with, Not be high nosed over righteous folk and be careful of whom I would lock arms and join hands with.  Also God was showing me not to be the wheat in a field like one who stood in one place, and for me “one place” means bondage because God made me to spread his word and show his love. Not to be judge over other Christians but to test their spirit and never duplicate their fake persona if they come off that way.  Show the right way to act.

Also do things not for man but unto God.  We need to be truthful in serving and also never forget who you are truly doing what your doing and who it is for.  Also Pray and have God give you such discernment to recognize if where you are is truly the harvest field you should be reaping.  I want to reap something from God not man, I want to have something planted from the Lord and birth from the Holy Spirit then birth from a man idea.  If not it may not take off because it wasn’t Gods idea in the first place. You end up questioning God why this field is not in full bloom and the harvest is a productions of something false.

Don’t you rather be hoping off into the cloud of the Holy Spirit blazing a trail for us to follow then stuck in one place of security or should I say false security.  Nothing wrong with security but would it be nice to see new things, new faces, new places, and new challenges, and new faith levels.  If you are not in that place now, I suggest you ask the Lord if where you are  is where you should stay.  Jump with us in what God has for you, as long as he is leading have faith where you fall-or rather where he places you after he catches us.

I wanted to leave this with you and tell you the revelation later, I would want to see what the Lord-Holy Spirit reveals to you.  Left you with a song… Stop everything and listen to it again…Until next time be blessed!

Christian Bound Ministries is hosting two Screenwriters sessions on April 25, 2009 in Las Vegas Nevada at the Watermark Executive Suites from 8:00am to 2:00pm. The cost is $25.00 per-person and includes a lite breakfast & snack. Limited seating in a private atmosphere. Call for more information & register today to hold your spot@ 702-485-5377. or email me at apanaa@aol.com.

Session One:

Barbara Nocolosi of Actone Hollywood

Actone Founder; Chair, Board of Directors ) Nicolosi has an MA in Film from Northwestern University in Evanston, IL. She has been a director of development, a panelist for the National Endowment for the Arts, and a consultant on many film and television projects.

Currently Barbara wrote the movie “Mary, Mother of the Christ” with Ben Fitzgerald (The Passion of he Christ). It is being produced by Aloe Entertainment for an MGM release in spring of 2010. The movie stars Al Pacino, Peter O’Toole, Jessica Lang and Camilla Belle.

Barbara’s topic 9-11

-Things to Think About Before Choosing Your Story
- What Aristotle Knew about Plot, Character and Saving the World With Stories
- What Flannery O”Conner Knew about Finding Mystery Amidst Manners
- What Does It Mean to Have a Story Be Universal, Irrevocable, High Stakes, Active and Visual.

Session Two:

Joseph &Charla Apana (Worship Writers)

Joseph & Charla traveled with “Isaiah” A Christian Praise and worship band evangelizing throughout the states. With over 17 years of experience in intimate worship. They Led worship for The International Church of Las Vegas Childrens Ministry for five years and trained children to lead worship. In Worship they found a call to write while in the presence of the Holy Spirit. They’ve written numerous songs and devotionals and are coming out with their first book, “Forty days of Fasting”. Charla finished her first screenplay in 2006 “Beyond Blessings” and is now working on their second script “Hawaiian Cowboys”.

The Apana’s Specializes in teaching intimate worship to writers and emphasize on bringing the Holy Spirit-Gods presence as the ink hit’s the paper. Being modern day scribes in this 21 century. They will worship and bring the presence of God and activate writers to hear God’s voice and write it out. The Apana’s will show examples of what it looks like to hear Gods voice in every area of life, especially in writing through a life style of intimate worship. Matthew 5:3-10 The beatitudes teaches us to have a humble heart to carry Gods presence everywhere you go.

Jesus loves you and who ever invented romance anyway?  “God did you silly’…He wants to romance you today will you love him back the way he loves you?

When you come to receive the Lord Jesus Christ as your personal Lord and savior you have entered into a whole new world.  I love this song and was listening to it and was really touched.  Don’t get religious on me, open your mind and let the Holy Spirit do his work.  Listen as the Holy Spirit sings to you today.

I can show you the world (Jesus invites you to follow him)
Shining, shimmering, splendid (You are valued to him)
Tell me, princess, now when did (You are the daughter of the King)
You last let your heart decide? (You can’t deny the pounding of your heart)

I can open your eyes (The Holy Spirit can show you things God secrets and understand mysteries)
Take you wonder by wonder (Miracle signs and wonders)
Over, sideways and under (All around you he will show you great things)
On a magic carpet ride (In the world’s understanding you thinks it magic but in Gods eyes it’s Prophetic)

A whole new world (Jesus will show you this new world with God, him and the Holy Spirit)
A new fantastic point of view (You will gain wisdom, understanding, and knowledge)
No one to tell us no (The world’s religious point of view will have no effect on you)
Or where to go (The worlds wisdom, of it should make sense.  Confound the wise)
Or say we’re only dreaming (Don’t listen to negative people stop you from dreaming because it doesn’t make sense)

A whole new world (Look and see, hear and move in the heavenlies as we are aliens of this world)
A dazzling place I never knew (Kingdom mentality, we may be on earth but walk in heaven everyday)
But when I’m way up here (Above the storms of life, it wont effect us)
It’s crystal clear (Gods ways are higher then our ways, latch on to that way of thinking)
That now I’m in a whole new world with you (We live in this world but are not of this world)
Now I’m in a whole new world with you (We choose to be apart of heaven)

Unbelievable sights (Let God shock you, blow your mind)
Indescribable feeling (We can not explain the Holy Spirit at times)
Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling (Jesus will rock your world if you let him)
Through an endless diamond sky (We are rocks burned in the hot Holy Spirit fire to be uncovered diamonds to shine for Jesus)

A whole new world (We are in a whole new world, a journey with Jesus to bless others)
Don’t you dare close your eyes (Now that you have Jesus don’t shut your eyes to the hurting world, do something)
A hundred thousand things to see (So overwhelming it looks to hard for us, but let God do it through you)
Hold your breath - it gets better (Then when you least expect it, we are depended on God he answers)
I’m like a shooting star (Let God shoot you out to the world to shine for Jesus.  He will lift you up not man)
I’ve come so far (Through the fire, through the rain come what may, God is good to me)
I can’t go back to where I used to be (I will never go back never be the same again because I have tasted of the Lord presence in my life)

A whole new world (With God we see things different now)
Every turn a surprise (Just when you think you know God he gives you another test)
With new horizons to pursue (He open doors only he can open and he closes the doors that needs to be closed)
Every moment red-letter (Jesus’ words are real and every moment he speaks is life changing)
I’ll chase them anywhere (Now I begin to be like King David and chase after God heart)
There’s time to spare (Time is precious…tell the world about Jesus, or no better show  Jesus in you live & active)
Let me share this whole new world with you (Be a doer of the gospel of Jesus Christ not just a preacher)

A whole new world
That’s where we’ll be
A thrilling chase
A wondrous place
For you and me

So today enjoy this “New World with Jesus and let the Lord speak to you throughout your day.  He doesn’t only speak to you in your prayer closet..he’s speaking constantly all around you.  Tune your ears into his voice.  For me he is  constantly speaking on the Disney channel and every cartoon show my kids watch.  He is speaking through the computer and through others and through my kids and friends.  He is speaking through a song and even on our weekly trip to the grocery store..Just listen.  Everything around us is leaking with Gods voice…Just listen.  Take God out of the box and the four walls of your church.

So today bring someone into our world.

“Through you I am saying to the prisoners of darkness, “Come out! I am giving you your freedom!” They will be my sheep, grazing in green pastures and on hills that were previously bare

Isaiah 49:9

Alright friends I just could not let this one slip away.  This is a very touchy subject one we should not mess around with because it is real and it really happens.  You really never see what goes on at the alters of a church when someone is reacting to the presence of God.   Why because you are not looking for it.  Two reactions that could be happening at the same time that comes to mind;  1. Negative and the other 2. Positive.  Normally a person attending church service would be positive worshiping God.  And the other may not be having such a great time many issue and cause so kind of manifestation.  Many other personalities that I would not go into but you get the picture.

Here is a scene, watch carefully…If you never seen a real deliverance before ( Demon possessed person) this is what is taking place in the spiritual realm while at the same time in the natural it is a little calmer.  However it could get messy like this and it has.   But we are becoming much wiser in the way God allows us to handle situations like this today.  Still we should never be ignorant to the attack of the enemy and always be ready to do what the Holy Spirit tells us to do when he tells us to do it.

Gandalf  arrives at the King Theodens palaces and is greeted by the Kings Men.  The Kings men ask Gandalf and his riders to disarm themselves, so they give up their weapons.  Except Gandalf (Never part with the weapon God gives to you when entering into battle).  Gandalf then enters into the Kings hall and sees the whole picture.  Before Gandalf gets closer towards the King “Grima wormtounge”  is feeding the King lines on what to say.  He is directing the king in everything. (Be careful who is beside you and whom you allow in your inner circle,  because they can feed you poison to where you are no longer in charge).  Many times you don’t know what hits you but it was the enemy like a worm he because you let him.  Gandalf walks in with his team (never go alone you need people beside you to watch your back (pray for you) so you can move in and set the captive free).   Then the next scene you see quickly this “Worm dude” thinks he’s in charge and tries to put a spell on Gandalf and Gandalf quickly silenced him with authority (we come in Jesus’ Name not ours).

Then what is funny Gandalf announces that he has been through hell and back and he’s good to go into this battle.  Basically saying don’t mess with me you little worm!  Gandalf is also saying, “Because I have been through the fire!” I now have authority over these situations.   So move aside little demon!! Who has made himself  “Look big” to others but could not fool a true Man or Women of God.  As soon as Gandalf stands up to him, quickly “Worm dude” starts to panic.

While at the same time some of the Kings Men who have no idea what is going on try to attack Gandalf.  (We have people like that around us who just don’t get it, but need more time to mature in the leading of the Holy Spirit)  But Gandalf’s  Riders really has his back so Gandalf can move in and address this possessed King.  Gandalf declares out loud who this King  really is!  Proclaiming he has been in the shadows far too long and it is his time to break forth and be the King he was destined to be.

But wait!  Gandalf tells this evil spirit to leave and it doesn’t and even Gandalf looks kind of surprised but keeps pressing in as the possessed King laughs at him.  (This almost looks like Gandalf is waiting to for the Holy Spirit to direct his next direction)  While this possessed King begins to Tell Gandalf  lies saying, ” he has no power Gandalf the Grey”  (I think this was to remind Gandalf of his past, but Gandalf didn’t listen and disrobed to his new wine skin, his new unstained clothes, his authority).  Gandalf presses in on the King who is possessed by “Sarumon” and address “Sarumon” not the King.  Sarumon then threatens Gandalf by saying “if he goes so does the king!”… But Gandalf does not listen and presses in and says “Be gone!” (Is this the perfect scene of us being delivered or us helping others be delivered! I love it!)

To end this scene “The King”delivered!  And freed!  His color starts to come back and Gandalf says, “Bread the free air again my friend”  Then the King stands up and takes his place and tells how he was awaken from a dark sleep.  Then Gandalf says to him how his finger would remember who he is if he grabs a hold of his sword! (The Word of God!)

This is wonderful to watch over and grab a hold of your freedom and don’t let the devil lie to you…Don’t allow people to come near you that would distort your way of thinking which the Holy Spirit has downloaded in you.  Be wise and be ready to cover a brother or a sisters back in prayer when they need you.

“God has led you away from danger, giving you freedom. You have prospered in a wide and pleasant valley.”

Job 36:16

What would we do if our children were taken from us?!  What extremes we would go to in saving our child/children from the evil one?  I am not going to say save them from the world because we need to be able to communicate with the world to share Jesus with them.  The world is not our enemy but save them from the enemy!  Yes!  But what does that look like?  Anything that is not in-line with the Word of God.  Do we conform to the world?  No! But to be able to relate and transform the world.  Would you go to the ends of the world to save your child? Your children?  Would you do whatever it took to keep them from the enemy.

Jesus showed me this.  I know he is a man in this clip but I can see many of us being just like that, to the extremes.  Us Mothers!  Yes!  I wanted to show you this clip from the “Patriot” with Mel Gibson.  His son played by Heath Ledger is taken by the enemy and (Mel) has no choice to save him with the few he has to help him do this.  The few he has to save his son? Is his other two younger sons.  Being pushed against the wall sometimes forces you to do things yourself with whom ever is around to help you..which is your own family.

Check it out, this is a lengthily clip but worth it.  However in the second half of this clip (Mel) is fighting against the general (red coats) of the opposite battalion and is very tired and keeps on pressing on with everything he has left in him.  Finishing off this scene with Mel saying his sons were better men.  That’s how we should be with our children…one day they will supersede us and become better then us.  But are we willing to go that extra mile? Are we willing to care for our children and allow the Lord to what he needs to with us as parents?  If yes then we will claim our ground and wave our flag in the air showing we have won the battle!! Amen? Amen!

I don’t know about you but I am a mother of six children in the natural.  And keeping an eye on six of them takes a lot of trial and error.  Thank God for the help from my husband Joseph to bring contentment for all of us.

They are precious gifts from the Lord and we enjoy watching their character unfold throughout the years.  Also to help them recognize the gifts they were given from the lord and to push them in that direction.

Many times we have to be ready to bring a balance in chaotic situation on the spot.  Ready or not here they come.  Like the bible says to be ready in or out of season.

2 Timothy 4:2 “Preach the word! Be ready in season and out of season. Convince, rebuke, exhort, with all long suffering and teaching”

We need to be there for all of them at the same time and not let one fall through the cracks.  And if they do slip through the cracks, of “our’ short comings, do we simply just turn away?  Or do we go after them into the darkness and fight for them.  Do we do whatever means to get them back form the clutches of the evil one.  I know a normal instinct for a parent “I hope” would be to we fight for our kids.  No matter where they have gone.  Evan what they have done.

Spiritually I also have babies that I care for and look after concerning their faith and walk with Jesus Christ.   I am mother to many women around the world whom I speak into their lives and help them on their journey concerning the Lord.  I was not looking for them they just came right along side of me.  I didn’t chose them they have chosen me.  I guess to better understand this is to say that many times it is the Holy spirit at work to make those divine connections with people.   Just like our children in the natural we didn’t chose them, God has chosen them for us.  That’s why it is good to keep our door open for all women God sends our way.  All children young in the lord to help care and train them just like you would with your child.

I have seen other women in the past pick and chose what women have a right to  follow them.  They end up closing the door on an opportunity that could have been the turning point in their ministry.  Why? Because they don’t fit “their” idea of “their” movement.  See that word “their” we should separate ourselves from.   We are not in charge, but somehow, sometimes we get caught up in the authority Gods gives to us for his glory and make choices that have already been made by God.  Were re-invent the wheel to please others.  To save face and to save position.

She’s too fat! To thin! To spiritual! To much out of the box! Not enough in the box! She just doesn’t look right!  Or my spirit just doesn’t sit well with her! (How’s that one) or they just can’t be trusted.  Or worst thing is that other people in AROUND YOUR circle don’t approve of them being a part of your group.  Now let’s be honest.  Woman can feel things and the enemy loves to pick and use that to bring separation.  So don’t try to fake it, if Gods love is in you then you are good to go.  Fake it and you are going to be going in a circle beating yourself up wondering why your ministry is not growing because you simply have too much control…Let it go.

Can you image Jesus blessing you with a child and you say, ” I don’t like her she has blue eyes.   She cries too much.  Or she has a sickness and it would be too hard to care for her.  Worst the children you already have don’t like her?  Your now present children sometimes becomes your friend.  And since you have established trust and there is a relationship, you listen to their advice in place of Holy Spirit discernment, leading you away from that opportunity. So we  do the unthinkable?  Yes we drop off our child to fend for themselves in hopes someone would care for them.  We leave them orphaned.  Worst we abort them before they have a chance to experience life.  The door was closed because our mind was closed from the beginning.

For those of us who have babies we are the mothers chosen to care and train them in the way they should go.  Easier said than done that’s for sure you may all agree with me there.

Proverbs 22:6 “Train up a child in the way he should go, And when he is old he will not depart from it.”

Do you remember the first time you saw the love of your life?  One glance and you’re heart was jumping out of your chest.  You did everything you could to get even closer than you are.   Your undivided attention is focused on watching that persons every move, without being obvious.  Still wanting and dreaming of being close enough to smell the scent of  your future partner-lover but still trying not to come off as a total desperate fool.  Frankly we  know that desperation sometimes draws us to do stupid things making us look like fools. If the feeling is mutual we connect and we pursue one another and being a fool is worth it.

No one else exists, and the only thing you care about is seeing each other again.  You try to remember the sound of their voice and you replay those scenes  over and over again in your mind of the last time you were with each other,together.   You can’t sleep and food seems to not be so important and you may feel that tingly sensation that you would get in your stomach hoping they feel the same as you.

Just remember that first glance.  The first hello.  The first smell of interest and the first touch holding hands.  The first laugh and the first kiss.  Oh just one more minute!  One more hour!  One more day!  One more dance! One more time to look into the eyes of your lover.  Something happens, it’s almost magical, you walk into another world called love and intimacy.

I hope I have taken you back to this place of remembrance, this place of love that you have experienced, because now I would like to tell you something so real it applies to all of us.  I know that song “Come away with me” was a perfect song that describes your relationship now with that special someone.  I hope I have caused you to pull up all those feelings from your past because someone else is singing that song to you today and it is not your spouse.  It is “Jesus,” yes he singing and calling you to come away with him today.

The Holy Spirit wants us to be intimate with the Lord.  Jesus wants us to be wanting him how he wants us.  Please please don’t get religious on me but  just step out side of the box and hear what I am saying.  This song speaks to me on how close Jesus/Holy Spirit wants us to be with him.  We are the bride and he is the bridegroom.  I took the liberty of showing the lyrics so you can follow along with me in this song once again as Jesus is singing to you.  I invite you now Holy Spirit to be so present in this place as I listen and hear you sing a love song to me.

Come Away With Me lyrics
Come away with me in the night (Let Jesus take you in the dark to be a light to the world)
Come away with me (Jesus say’s come on;  just come with me)
And I will write you a song (Jesus will give you a future, a plan to prosper you to sing praises)

Come away with me on a bus (Jesus wants your ministry to expand and make disciples of all nations)
Come away where they can’t tempt us (Jesus wants us safe in his care, protect our hearts and minds not to sin)
With their lies (Jesus don’t want us to listen to the devils lies and people who speak death into our lives)

I want to walk with you (Jesus wants to be with us not as servants anymore but friends his partner) On a cloudy day (Jesus wants you to experience the rain of the Holy Spirit to fall on you)
In fields where the yellow grass grows knee-high (Jesus wants you to get ready for the harvest he places you in)
So won’t you try to come (So don’t be stubborn and turn away from God he just wants to bless you)

Come away with me and we’ll kiss (Jesus wants to be intimate- love your God with all your heart soul mind)
On a mountaintop ( Jesus will have you conquer mountains, giving you authority over your short comings)
Come away with me (So come on Jesus says)
And I’ll never stop loving you (He’s love is unconditional, forever, life eternally)

And I want to wake up with the rain (The Holy Spirit will wake you from your slumber to share the gospel of Jesus)
Falling on a tin roof  (A “tin roof’”-means God’s glory will fall and his glory will break that thin roof)
While I’m safe there in your arms (Jesus feels if he is between your arms, near heart you are safe)
So all I ask is for you (God has chosen you, it’s not a mistake)
To come away with me in the night (Jesus says be the light in the darkness)
Come away with me (Jesus is drawing you near to him)

Today my friends go deeper to fall in love with your fist love.  Jesus is the groom and we are the bride…Love your spouse today and bless them, but allow the Lord to bless and love you.

How many of us feel that way, “Beaten up and broken down.”  We are fed up! Fed up with  many things that keep trying to run us down!  Don’t worry your not alone.  Frankly we all have demons on constant watch to attack us  at our door waiting for us to mess up and fall face down in the mud.

Just when we think it’s over, face down in the mud, the real beating begins.  Physically we are tired, and are bodies can’t go the distance anymore, but spiritually we are hanging on a single thread of faith and hope.  Wait a minute!  I know that’s probably how we feel emotionally but hey!  I need to stop talking like that!  We are made with the blood of Christ and we should be talking more like how the bible says we are right? We are more then conquerors!

James 1:2-4 read, “Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. ³ For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. ⁴ So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect and complete, needing nothing.

^{Romans 8:37  “}Yet amid all these things we are more than conquerors and gain a surpassing victory through Him Who loved us.”

Wonderful scene.  This movie “The last Samurai”  actor Tom Cruse has been taken as a prisoner of war.  Everything looks pretty bad, but he has still manage to survive.  He is confronted by the King’s right hand man and is beaten down to almost nothing.  His mind is strong, but his physical body is weak, but he still perseveres.  It may look as if he had lost but as we watched this scene we were right there with him.  We felt we won because in his mind he did win.  This actor kept on getting knocked down but he kept on getting back up!  He was focused on the prize and was not shaken by the moment, because the prize was to survive!   It may look like you have lost but you have already won.   So with that being established take a look at that picture below.

Now look really good.  Do you see anyone your recognize?…Now look a little closer…”yep!”  It’s you!  That deer is you in the picture!  I can just picture you getting up early, sitting with your coffee to pray and you decide to read this post.   Curious to read more because you are the hunted one like a deer running from it’s hunter.  I can hear you saying, “what an encouraging word Charla!  Thanks!  That’s what I needed to hear this morning, the devil is going to beat me up and tare me down and I am the hunted!”  Then you continue to see yourself as a deer panting by the water having a wonderful day, drinking from the well of life when it happens.  Yes from left field and an arrow misses your behind!  Freaked out!  You take off running, leaving God and his well behind.  (Thank God you didn’t eat that bagel yet it could have put on a second layer of skin on your backside and you would have gotten clipped)

Alright, alright,  it is a harsh visual but lets not “beat” around the bush here when following  Christ we are more then likely to be the center of a bulls-eye.  An open walking and talking bulls-eye, not only form the devil but from other people as well.  Do you try to hide?  Run?  Or do you just stand!  The devil my look like he’s winning but really he is not.

I wonder what would happen if that deer would stop running, turns around and looks at the hunter right in his eyes.  They both pause for a moment then suddenly the deer don’t run away he runs straight for him!  The hunter!  The hunter would probably be taken by surprise because this would be an unusually event.  I can just see it now.  The deer turns the hunter into the hunted, then quickly this deer hops into the air (Yes Just like Kung Foo Panda-slow moe)  Kicks the bow out of his hands slaps him a couple times with an attitude (like a human slapping a face-that’s funny)  The hunter does not go down so easily.  He is really tough!  Yes ! But he will not give in!   The deer will not give up! He preservers!

Psalms 91:1 HE who dwells in the secret place of the Most High Shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.  Psalms 91:2 I will say of the LORD, “He is my refuge and my fortress;
My God, in Him I will trust.”

I don’t want to place fear into your heart but don’t be ignorant.   The enemy knows you and you should know how he operates and how he can attack us.  Remember you are protected if you stay in Gods care.  Besides I am like many of you sometimes feel  beaten over and over again.    All I can say is stand!  My brother and sister just stand!  What does that look like? Let me show you.  Standing is worshiping the King and being grateful that  he loves us.  Thank God for his grace and mercy.  Just close your eyes and listen to the words of this song and let me impart to you today Gods promise in way of worship!!

I cry when I hear this because our flesh is weak, but our spirits are strong and willing.   I can relate with you now on how  hard to believe that we are constantly being placed in the fire to be consumed by the Holy Spirit, to be stronger.  When my Dad died he was not only my daddy but he was my best friend who believed in me and loosing that was fearful for me to face.

But I had to stand up against my fear, because that is what the devil held on me it was fear.  He was attacking me with that the fear of losing my dad.  Until I gave it unto the Lord and allowed him to take full control in having his will be done in our lives….We won!  My Dad won!  We were the victors!! My dad gained heaven that day, even still it hurts, but I know he is alive and well with Jesus.

That day when he was not doing so good in the hospital, I cried I was broken…but God was bigger then it all and I had to trust him through it.  So my friend whatever you are going through, just trust him through it and claim it and remember he loves us no matter what.

I know this title above is a pretty strong statement, but if someone is following you…then consider yourself a leader! Think of it for a minute, what is a leader?  Who is a leader?  What should a leader look like?   Am I a leader?  Ok…Lets just say it!  You are a leader!  Yes you are! Because someone, somewhere is always following you and if not following you then you can be sure they are certainly watching you.

How many of you remember this movie.   I could not help myself in writing this next post.  In my younger years I would like to think everyone watched this movie called “Goonies” and if they didn’t watch it then, I am almost sure they will get to watch it now.  Especially considering the star of “Goonies”  was Sean Astin in his younger years.  You may recognize him as the now famous “Samwise Gamgee,” from Lord of the Rings.

Hopefully you are beginning to see one of the ways God speaks to us.  His revelation is like  “locks of hidden secrets” wanting to be opened.  Hidden treasures that are made to be uncovered.   If anything……. I pray that you would get  from visiting my website is to hear God’s voice speaking  to you in every situation that surrounds you and others.  He is talking, he is showing and he is revealing many things to us everyday.   Only if we just listen and take our eyes off  of ourselves.  God gives us things usually for the sake of his children, who is his children?  The world.   Let me share a scripture with you that me and my husband live by daily.

Proverbs 25:2 “  It is the glory of God to conceal a matter, but it is the glory of kings to search it out.”

Who are the kings?  We are the kings my friends!  God likes to hide things to see if we are willing to search it out.  Covered things to be unveiled to us for many reasons.  One could be to help others in a healing process or to pray for them in what ever they may be going through.  Or maybe hidden secrets of mans heart so we can connect with them, to witness the gospel of Jesus Christ.  There are so many more reasons, why God does what he does.   This is why it is so important to be navigated by the Holy Spirit, because he will show you “x” marks the spot.  So when finding the treasure you will begin, to start digging (in your word) and be amazed of the revelation, wisdom,  and knowledge God will you so you to be a blessing to others.

My husband Joseph and I love to put the pieces of a spiritual puzzle together anytime God offers it to us.   Many times he speaks to us in way of movies so let me bring you up to speed in this classic movie of mine.  Keep that scripture in mind when I show you this clip, and remember we are responsible!  Keep that in mind too, “We are responsible!”  I will say it again just in case it did not sink into your mind, we are responsible.

These group of kids are on a mission to save their homes  from being torn down and replaced by a golf course.  Upon finding a genuine pirate’s map accidentally, they seek out on a journey to discover hidden treasures that could stop this awful event.

It’s a wonderful adventure full of laughs and booby traps and everything a kid wants to experience at the age of 12.  The most memorable scene is when they come across an underground waterfall full of money.  Thinking they have struck gold, they soon realize it’s just the towns old wishing well.  This one clip that you are about to see, speaks to my heart dearly.  Take a look.

These kids reminds me of many Christians, the front runners of this race we so willingly set out to do.  We are chosen to take the lead and seek out the hidden treasure of what can help save us and others.  We then become so excited in our findings, we may get caught up in the moment.  We may start out navigated by the Holy Spirit at first and then not careful we fall into the trap of the enemy.  We come to a place where we are surrounded by his glory, that is around us-like these kids when they discover this treasure.  You find two different reactions, one-selfish and the other- responsible with what Gods has revealed to her.

In the past I do recall when Gods Glory falls on us we tend to react in two ways, because we are consumed by his fire.  1. If you have hidden sin in your life, when Gods fire falls on you your flesh will be burned,(because it is an opposition to God-sin) causing you to react in a manifestation of hidden sin in your life to rise up and be displayed.  2.  A sinful person with a repentant heart, a humble heart seeks for Gods fire, is consumed with Gods unconditional love and wants to follow in the things of God to benefit the advancement of Gods kingdom.  Hear with your spiritual ears so you can understand completely.

A selfish heart may be so caught up in the moment (away from every thing else) you may forget others who are left behind?  What about the others who are still outside?   What about the ones who were not so fortunate then you.  Some of us may not be as responsible then others and find ourselves stealing the dreams of other to satisfy our own desires.  Like that boy at the end of the movie clip.  He is in a position of holding the key’s to releasing others in their destiny’s.  He is taken by his own wants and dreams.  He gets  tempted to accommodate his own destiny and to fulfill his own desires because of his past hurts.  He allows his human nature to think of himself first and others later.  Forgetting all of the other dreams that lay way side waiting to be picked up and be used by God.  People are starving for direction, and when starving people tend to do the things you never imagine doing.  So it is our responsibility to feed them and make sure they get the right food at whatever place they are in their life. Spiritual food.

If you are in a position of running in your destiny never forget how it felt to be wanting a chance to function in that calling.  Many Christians feel frustrated because they are so hungry and may be getting feed the wrong food by the wrong people.  Take ownership of your church family and help a brother or a sister out.  Many of us caught up in our own thing and we forget where we came from and how we  got there.  If you are a leader and God has navigated you to a place of authority over others, stop being so religious, and be that blessing to someone who needs it.

So many bad things are happening in our world today and not allowing someone to function in their gift will not hurt us sheep more then (the devil)  is doing outside the four walls of any church.  We will run!  We will fall, and we will learn, and we will be able to experience how to depend on the father.  I may not be so popular right now in saying these things,  but it’s true!  So let the truth set us free!  Right!

How long will we all allow the devil to mess up our way of thinking because we are in fear of failing or have someone under our care fall beside us reflecting our leadership.  STOP!  STOP!  Wrong way of thinking!  People fail and fall, because they are never given a chance to fall or fail.  We need to recognize how to handle failing and falling, within the areas of our own homes, because when that time comes….to be sent out, we are ready.  Train my friends we are all in training.   Training never was taking a walk in the rose garden..it was getting down and dirty.  Making a mistake now is training, so when ready to be sent  out in the real world, we will be able to handle it and know what it looks like before it could happen to us, even to other.  Kingdom mentality my friends is what we need.

If you are a leader then please lead, not with chains but complete trust in God.  Help the ones who have not found their way yet.  You are responsible to release them into their calling, why…because God did it for you, now do it for someone else.  Look and see where they need to be and send them off.

Do you really want to grow God’s kingdom or just be in charge of it..Be careful my friends, we are all in a position of something that was given to us, that we have favor in, start to use it to help others….

Especially when God gives us the map.  Unbelievable!  God give us the directions, but sometimes we want to trail it on our own.  Even with an attitude God still believes in us, it’s just the kind of God we serve.  Later you will find when God really can trust, is when he gives us the secrets in the heart of men.    The key to open the hidden things of men to help send them in their destiny’s.

So please like those kids we are always on that journey to seek out, and find, but are we always going to be responsible in it.  You are responsible leader, you are SO LEAD….and someone will follow.

Did you ever feel like your world is closing in on you? Ever felt your back was up against a wall? Only to realize, no one is around to help pull you out of it?.  It even seems like God is out on his lunch break eating a krispy Kreme doughnut and a coffee from Starbucks!  And watching “Hero’s” or something!

Then you find out your closest friend is on vacation, even from you!  The woman’s ministry women are all running errands!  Your kids are making the matter worst by intensifying the situation.  Your husbands cell phone is not going through because he forgot to recharge it!  The phone rings and, it’s a telemarketers wanting you to pay a bill!  That you just can’t pay right now because you have to pay the car insurance or else!  Then to top it off, your baby has a poop session!  And it leaks all over the playpen!  Come on now!  Who knows what I mean?  Who can identify with that!  Who has been there and done that!  Yes my friends, I do have to admit “yes,” that’s “Me!”  Oh?……. Ok!  I don’t feel so bad anymore!  I got a feeling that this could be you too.  So with all that being said, watch this!

Because you were taken off guard the enemy tricks you in thinking, “everyone in this entire world has left you up for grabs by the enemy!”  Forcing you to take matters into your own hands.  So all you feel like doing is running!  You have been taken by surprise and your normal tendency is just to react.  Barely getting away, you hold a key in your hands (Frodo) and the enemy wants it from you to stop your destiny!   He want’s us to give in and give up!  We can’t allow him to steal our keys, our destiny’s.

Did you see Arwen’s intense riding, running from those demon riders.?  She is the only one out there surrounded by the enemy and she continues to push on.  Sometimes that is how God allows us,  to be trained in our lives.   Causing you to pull up from out of your inner being and depend on him.  Calling on the Holy Spirit is the best and only thing we can do!  In the midst of all chaos we have the counselor and direction from above.

After Arwen has been riding hard, she is tired and need’s to make a stand!  She comes to this crossing, which is a river and stops.  Knowing she can’t make it anymore on her own She changes her way of thinking and calls on the Lord to take over.  So he step in by helping her, by faith she pulls up all faith that she has in her and the river responds!  The river- The Holy Spirit comes rushing through like horses on the stampede to wipe her enemy out!  She too is surprised, if you pay attention to her face as the water consumes her enemy.  We by faith steps out, but really we get surprised when God shows up.  I don’t know about you but that happens to me many times.

Many times in my life and those around me I have witnessed this.   God allows these moments to strengthen us and test us on how far we can go on our own strength.  How far we can be pushed to then finally calling on the Lord to intervene for us and wipe out our enemy.

What are you made of?  What is hiding deep down inside of you to fight in a way to bring Glory to the living God!  I know we may start out running, but at the end we are challenged to have our Spirit Man rise up from within us to stop running.  Not retreating but to have the enemy run from us!!  Pull out your sword!  And hold it up and know who you are in Christ and he is in you!  So remember we are made to conquer, we are made to be victors!

Think about what is the enemy trying to steal from you?  What is those special keys God has given you to open doors with?  What is the lies the enemy has been speaking into your ears and clouding up your mind with lately?!  Don’t listen!  Don’t believe!  Don’t give up!  Press on forward and cross the river and take a stand!  If you feel like you have been defeated today, it’s a lie!  You are a warrior of the living God, so let him continue to train you to be better in all area’s of any trials that you are experiencing today.

I pray for you today my friend, that you will embrace the way God teaches you and that he will open your mind to more wisdom, knowledge and understanding.  I have left you with another clip of this movie above enjoy and hopefully God can bring more revelation to you today..

P.S  Please don’t be so religious that you may be offended of Arwen’s “elfin language” that she is using.   Lets just use that as if she is speaking in her heavenly languages from the Holy Spirit,called tongues.  Ha..Ha..

He’s Alive! Yes “Jesus” is Alive! Let me share this song with you today, because some day’s can be harder to get through then others.  Remember we must never forget where our strength comes from. The Holy Spirit is all willing to come and invade my entire being if I just invite him in.  Call on him and seek his wisdom knowledge, and understanding in all things.

Don’t be so wrapped up in yourself that you cannot minister to others.  Step back for awhile and see what others maybe missing.  Look at a situation differently then others around you, just look deeper.

If someone sees an apple, you should see an apple pie!  If someone sees a lemon you would see refreshing lemon aid.  If someone sees it’s too hard , then you would see the reward.  If someone sees a mountain, you would see a clear horizon.  If someone sees a sickness, then you see a testimony!!  I am sure you get the picture.

When I was younger, I had a full paid scholarship ready for me.  I was to leave the islands in less then four weeks.  When I met my husband and was taken by this Hawaiian guy because he truly captured my heart.  One thing led to another and we got pregnant.  At the age of 18 I received my diploma and threw all other plans out the window.  At that age I knew the Lord and still played with fire, but God had it all planned out.  This man was to become my worship partner and the father of my Six children.  What I’m trying to say is that when everyone seen  “abortion” (because Jesus lived in us) we seen “Life!”  We seen “Austin” my eldest son.

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So let’s worship and see differently today, Because Jesus is alive just allow him to live in you, see what he sees, because he’s alive!  If you would like to read up more on my story of me and my husband just copy and paste address  below.

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Elly my youngest daughter, is home with me everyday in which she will find things to do by herself since Kepa my youngest son is a little to young to do the things she likes to do….

So thus began the search for something to entertain herself…..Which was herself!!  She found a camera my friends oh yes she found her a toy!!  Enjoy and more stuff of her is coming…

The song is Livin on a prayer, but she took the liberty of changing  the words.

I know a story that shows real love. A love that would drive you to the ends of the earth making the wrong’s of this world- right!! A love that would cause you to influence everyone around you to have courage and passion to love others. To love in such a way wanting to make others free!!

Where is this kind of love? Where is this strength we need to pull from? Where are we going to get such a heart that would be brave in these final days on earth.

We are these people to make that difference… I know we are not in the past but let the past strengthen us to make our decisions count.

I want a love like that! I want to experience such a wooing from the Holy Spirit, that it would cause me to influence to help others in leading them to their freedom!!  I want to burn with passion, a love from the father that causes me to only think of our meeting place.  Watch this short clip to show you what a man can do with a love that he has for another.  Just think how Jesus feels about you and the length that he will go for you… Or should I say the length he did go for you which was hanging  on the cross and conquered death for me and you!

John 3:16

“For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

With no hesitation will you go where others will never dare to go!  Will you be able to push the lid off the roof!  Or in this case would you risk your life, your reputation and go against every sensible knowledge that you know?  To capture the lost that are running wild!  So lost they don’t know it.

In my prayer this morning the Holy Spirit showed me a vision of a horse.  He was running across the open range of the majestic grasslands of  Montana.  As I began to press into prayer, the clearer this vision was becoming.  This horse was a stallion and he ran with such authority and great strength the earth shook under his intense sprint.  The mountain view off the side of him was almost non-existent due to his advancing speed!  Then all I could hear the Holy Spirit say,  “Run like this!! I have given you freedom!! Run!!”

Then after my prayer I thought it was over and the word I got from God was short and powerful.  To just run and be free! “Not so fast the Lord said.”  I then learned  he was not finished with me yet.  Then the Holy Spirit lead me to this video.  The man from snowy river.  Watch this 4 minute clip and the story will continue like it did for me.  What happened to that horse running.  Where did he go and what did he do?  He did not just run aimlessly for nothing!  Watch..

We are like that! We should be.  Everyone clears out to make way for the people who will leap off a mountain and go after the lost.  Almost leaping into the unthinkable!  Almost looking like a death wish to others but a life call for us !  But God loves that because he can use that, to preform miracles that would confound the wise.  Yes ! Blow away peoples minds their thinking!  Then just when you think it is all over God uses his servant to bring forth his glory!!

Is this you?  Are you like this man who is willing to leap off a cliff and chase after the lost.  Will you go down to the valley of the shadow of evil to rescue his people!  Our people!

So he told them this parable: 4 “What man of you, having a hundred sheep, if he has lost one of them, does not leave the ninety-nine in the open country, and go after the one that is lost, until he finds it? 5And when he has found it, he lays it on his shoulders, rejoicing. And when he comes home, he calls together his friends and his neighbors, saying to them, ‘Rejoice with me, for I have found my sheep that was lost.’ 7Just so, I tell you, there will be more joy in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who need no repentance.

~Luke 15:3-7

Just worship with me today. How close are you to the Lord? Ask your self that question. Can I hear his heart beat? Can I hear his voice without him speaking? Can I smell his sent. Can I smell him, if not then I must not be close enough. How intimate are you to him.

Mothers are professionals.  At what!  Being mothers of course!  I have six children and it feels like I have been having children most of my life so far.  I know I can’t contend with other mothers on television that have eight or seventeen children.  But know this I have six children and many times it feels like I have as many of these children like those other mothers.  We (mothers) to many times get pushed back as stay at home (nobodies). What do others think! We just sit and watch tv!  Well sometimes or even some of us, when all our works is done.  But in my house I must balance work and caring for my children every minute of the day.  Do we leave work! Never! Do we get a break or a bonus! Sometimes.  But most of all we are on the job 24-7.  365 days in a year.

Attention all men!  Be nice and give us some extra love and extra gifts and extra pats on the back.  We may have attitudes and may have a little cockiness and sometimes down right honorery but what do you expect we never get a day off!  So hat’s off to all mothers! Hat’s off and take a seat.

We will be paid for all of our sacrifices in the long run, more then what a professional would make in his or her life time.  I almost feel like those Spartans who fight for what is right and to show they are serious in what they do.  Do I walk around with an armor and a weapon.  Of course I do!  A Christian women of God is dangerous, if she is truly who God says she is.  I myself have trouble being that person everyday, but by faith I will get their.  I am a professional in Christ!  Below is taken from Wikipedia describing the meaning of such a word “Professional”.

A professional is a person who has completed a doctoral or law program (a masters or bachelors degree does not infer a professional)^. The term professional is often misused^. It is not to be confused with “White Collar” or “expert”. A person who is white collar performs a job that requires education and does not involve physical labor. An expert is a person in a profession that requires certain types of skilled work requiring formal training or education. In western nations, such as the United States, the term commonly describes highly educated, mostly salaried workers, who enjoy considerable work autonomy, economic security, a comfortable salary, and are commonly engaged in creative and intellectually challenging work. 

Remember we are getting paid! We are.  Mothers I hope you dance through it all.  Our kids are priceless!

Have you ever came across a person who thinks they own you!  Well I have.  Some people think they have all rights over you and use those words “they are responsible for you” as a excuse to be God.  It is called control and power.  Authority is different.  The difference are;  One demands you to listen.   The other is willing to listen.

Control for power is a unwilling forceful demand that you need to submit to that person.  Delegated Authority form God is different.  The person who stands on the opposite side of delegated Authority is willing to listen and serve.  Why can’t we be like this dude.  Sing with me now…La….La…La….La La la la la….La.

Think about it God never forces his rules, commands on anyone.  He allows them to choose and come to him willingly.  What  makes us think we can do things we don’t even see our father in heaven doing.  We tend to makeup our own rules and make sure others carry them out.  Is this world ours that we can share together or does it belong to a selected number few.

My beloved

Many times we really don’t understand the love the Father has for us.  We are so beautiful to him.  I know it’s crazy, with all of our short comings he still loves us.  Let Kari Jobe sing to you this day the words Jesus sings to us.  Listen to the lyrics and take it all in.  You must have needed this special word for today so be blessed.  Go away with him come on I dare you.

Holy Spirit come and bring your warmth fire on my friends today.  Holy Spirit come and have your will and way today.  Holy Spirit I love you.  Holy spirit I am sorry if I have defiled you in anyway in my daily living.  Help me to be sensitive to  your presence.  Holy Spirit be my friend again, be my counselor, be my passion to love you like never before. Breathe into my soul and refresh me to hear you speak to me the treasures that are hidden in your heart, let me never stop seeking you, never.

What a day for these United States of America.  Ever listened to that statement “United” States.  Today we have managed to do just that.  As far as I could tell, it did look as if we were united.

Many people clustered around Washington’s historical monuments and pushed their way towards a gated entry with tickets in hand.  Sorry to say many could not get in any closer then they were promised.  Did they care?  Not really.  Many were just happy to be there.

I did not vote for President Obama, but I surely stand with him today.  He stands with such authority and passion in truly helping us get our country back on the right track.  Really this is a moment in our history where I can say we are apart of this event.  For some reason this President has brought back that high standard of a kingship atmosphere and still never separating himself  from his people, which is us.  My most awesome moment while he was giving his inaugural speech is when he said,

“On this day, we gather because we have chosen hope over fear, unity of purpose over conflict and discord.

On this day, we come to proclaim an end to the petty grievances and false promises, the recriminations and worn out dogmas, that for far too long have strangled our politics.

We remain a young nation, but in the words of Scripture, the time has come to set aside childish things. The time has come to reaffirm our enduring spirit; to choose our better history; to carry forward that precious gift, that noble idea, passed on from generation to generation: the God-given promise that all are equal, all are free, and all deserve a chance to pursue their full measure of happiness.

In reaffirming the greatness of our nation, we understand that greatness is never a given. It must be earned. Our journey has never been one of short-cuts or settling for less. It has not been the path for the faint-hearted - for those who prefer leisure over work, or seek only the pleasures of riches and fame. Rather, it has been the risk-takers, the doers, the makers of things - some celebrated but more often men and women obscure in their labour, who have carried us up the long, rugged path towards prosperity and freedom.”

Just this statement alone describes my character feeling I can continue to dream and know I can do all things in Christ who strengthens me.  My father was a dreamer and I am one too.  America needs all of us praying for this transition.  I pray you will join me in seeking Gods will in how to pray for this leader God has chosen to lead us on this earth. This was a very interesting day to watch the news report every moment.  To watch this man connect with people and how he has placed such value on us.

Ask yourself that question, “How much value do you place on other peoples ?”  and “Do you really love people like Jesus did.”  Just let that question sink into your mind and sit for a while.  Lets try to become more like Jesus and stop simply talking about him.

What can I say our president is a Punahou Graduate.  How could anyone not see that shaka sign and a very exciting “howzit” from his mouth towards those kids in that marching band.  Well done! Well done!

Now when growing up, this is the way we talked, and still even now I write somewhat in Padgin.  Broken English we still try to get by.  But this never stopped me from writing.  So I have placed a little example of what it looks like to grow up in Hawaiian and talk like this.  What is more fun we have a bible translated into this language.  Go to the site at (olive tree.com) and download it for fun it is cool.  Go ahead and read it! lol!

Dis book da first one dat give da whole New Testamen fo Hawaii Pidgin peopo. Plenny peopo dat live Hawaii like know bout Jesus. But fo find out who him fo real kine, befo time dey gotta use da English kine Bible. Dat Bible use all kine hybolic kine language, not da kine language dat da regula people talk every day. Da translata guys make dis translation from da original Greek, fo da peopo dat stay talk Pidgin, so everybody can find out dea own self bout Jesus, an do um fo real kine. Da team use da heavy kine Pidgin from da countryside, cuz dis book fo da peopo dat talk Pidgin all da time an English ony litto bit. But not jus da peopo from da countryside, dey da one dat use dis book. Odda folks like um too cuz stay mo clear fo dem. Dey use um fo make Bible study, youth group, read fo demself, read wit dea kids, help peopo dat get trouble, teach, help peopo fo know Jesus, send to Hawaii peopo dat live on da mainland… an plenny odda kine stuff too.

Excerpt: 3 Da guy dat watch da gate, he open um fo da sheep farma. Da sheeps hear da sheep farma’s voice wen he call dem by dea name, an den he take dem outside. 4 Afta he take um outside, he go in front dem, an da sheeps go wit him, cuz dey know his voice. —John 10:3-4

Also below you will find this helpful and watch a funny skit on how we talk(not all the time) but with less drama of course, check out the rest of this guys stuff it’s funny…

Last year was filled with a special blessing set to us- my sixth child was born, but also the most hardest in my life.  I lost my Grandma in April, and lost my Dad in August.  But through it all I still choose to give all the glory to my Lord Jesus Christ.  Sometimes things don’t go our way but God is still in control.  No matter what I need God, and I am truly dependent on him.  All plans have changed and all directions altered in the lost of my Dad, but I still choose to follow Christ.  Is it easy?  let’s be real, sometimes it’s not, well most of the time.  But I hope and believe it will get better.  Worship is the only thing that can get me to the place I need to be to walk it out.  Worship with me today.

“Jesus is Born”

What is Christmas all about?  Why have we strayed away from the true meaning, the true reason we celebrate this season.  I know we can’t help it, with all the beautiful decorations and wonderful feeling in the air of giving or (come on) receiving, lets be honest we love it.  But when you give with real genuine love, you do feel something in your heart, and it can last for a life time.

I love to give, but sometimes it can be alittle hard when you have nothing to give and all you are left with is yourself.  Yes give of your self especially in this very tight economy.  That word selfishness can be sly, and it can sneak in and you don’t even know it’s there.  Come on you guys, if you didn’t get it by now.  What I am trying to do here is get you to appreciate your life and the people around you.

Get in touch with those things that are eternal.  Think of the life of others, what about Joseph, Jesus’ father and what about Mary, Jesus’ mother, and what about Jesus the child of God.  What about your neighbor, what about your co-worker, your husband, your children, what about the lady that tires to run you over at the grocery store with her shopping cart.  I am sure we all have had that done to us sometime or another- the shopping cart rammed into the back of our heal “Ouch!”  Or how about that person who looks at you in the mall, as if she just wants to kill you because you are in her way.  Where is the smile this year, where is the Jesus in you……..I don’t know about you but everyday I do have to remind myself, Jesus lives in me and you.

Sometimes we just need to sit by the fire place and cuddle up and reflect on the beauty of what God has created around us.  Cuddle up with some one you love and have a cup of coffee.  Lets talk about all the things that mean something to us.  Lets talk about the small things that are big in our life.  Come follow me and lets just sit and talk with God and have him respond.  Ask him a question, go on, any question and wait for the answer. And hey if you are with your spouse, do it together and have a wonderful and special time enjoying the simplicity that life has to offer you.  Christmas is about the gifts that you already have, not the ones that you are going to get.  Just imagine you are in that picture and you are getting ready to spend the best weekend of your life, and just cuddle.

I survived a Monster Truck Crash

Check this out, just to give you alittle idea on how big this truck really was watch this clip below, and hey, just let me entertain you, my kids liked it.

Believe it or not when I was younger I had a friend whose friend owned the “Royal Hawaiian Monster Truck”. The year was 1989 and I was just seventeen and crazy.  I think back and wonder, “wow” God did keep me protected in my teen years.  I pray the same for my son who is a teen, making eighteen in one month.

Everyone knew about this popular truck in Hawaii.  And one day my friend and I was invited to go for a ride with some brothers, we took the invitation and felt we were so cool.  Not knowing we were in for a day we would never forget,  a fight to stay alive.  I know God was there and I know God had a plan for my life and it wasn’t for it to be over at the age of seventeen.

Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” says the LORD. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.

My friend and I were picked up and we drove towards the west-side of the island.  That weekend was Kauai’s local entertainment of drag racing at the “Mana drag strip” and we were headed there.  On arrival we showed off this monster truck and yes we turned heads, but our guy friends decided to go the distance and take the truck on the beach for some four wheeling.  We just followed and felt they knew what they were doing and just went along with it.

We started out on the sand, almost like mud bogging and it all happened so fast.  We Before we knew it we hit a small hard sand dune and the truck went flying and we rolled over five times and my friend standing in the back of the truck flew off, and thank God the sand broke his fall.  However the three of us we were in the cab as it rolled destroying this huge 4-wheeler that landed on it’s side and pinned the driver in the sand.

I remember escaping from the small back window, I don’t even remember how I knew there was a back window.  My friends followed and ran for help, and all I could do was yell at her to go get help.  People over from the drag racing strip seen it all, and help was already on it’s way.  I was so shaken but heard the driver grasping for air.  I tried to search fore him.  His legs was still in the cab of the truck and his upper body was in the sand, with the truck on it’s side on his tors oil and head.

I started to pray out loud and in tongues(My heavenly Language) calling on the Lord to help me dig him out.  At the age of seventeen, I was lead by the Holy Spirit to seek him and his help and give me a miracle.  This guy was a big guy, but I dug him out and pulled his body out from under the truck.  Shortly another guy came over to help me.  He placed me on the side and all I could do was cry thanking the Lord he saved my life and the life of my other friends.  I walked away with not one scratch.  The local newspaper reported that the 4-wheeler was totally destroyed.  Three of the four passengers were badly hurt, but one person escaped with no injuries, and that was me.

When looking back what was I thinking! Yep I was not, but God was still there to hold me and still call me his own, even if we are doing stupid things.  Thank God for his mercy and grace.  Hey if you just think of your past of all the times God has saved you, just thank him today.

I do have to admit, I have not been such a women to my God, my husband, my children.  I would want to be all those things that are written in proverbs 31:10 but I am still learning how to juggle or balance this major role in my life.  What this passage is basically saying to me as a women of God is this.   I have to wear many hats throughout the day and be ready in and out of any season God presents to me concerning my family.  One day I am a chef and at the same time I am a wanna be doctor.  Sometimes I am a teacher (Which I am really) and other days I am the prison guard.  Sometimes I am the accountant, and other times I am the taxi driver.  Sometimes I am a party host, and even a maid.  Other times I am a lover, and with no word of warning I am a mother again.  Wait, I may be thinking all wrong, I guess all of those hats stay on my head at all times.  ”Impossible!”  But then I prayed and this song came to me, so if I just do what this song says and my heart is in the right place, everything is gonna be alright.  We are these women, or at least we try to be.

“Proverbs 31:10 Women”

Who can find a virtuous and capable wife? She is worth more than precious rubies. 11 Her husband can trust her, and she will greatly enrich his life. 12 She will not hinder him but help him all her life. 13 She finds wool and flax and busily spins it. 14 She is like a merchant’s ship; she brings her food from afar. 15 She gets up before dawn to prepare breakfast for her household and plan the day’s work for her servant girls. 16 She goes out to inspect a field and buys it; with her earnings she plants a vineyard. 17 She is energetic and strong, a hard worker. 18 She watches for bargains; her lights burn late into the night. 19 Her hands are busy spinning thread, her fingers twisting fiber. 20 She extends a helping hand to the poor and opens her arms to the needy. 21 She has no fear of winter for her household because all of them have warm clothes. 22 She quilts her own bedspreads. She dresses like royalty in gowns of finest cloth. 23 Her husband is well known, for he sits in the council meeting with the other civic leaders. 24 She makes belted linen garments and sashes to sell to the merchants. 25 She is clothed with strength and dignity, and she laughs with no fear of the future. 26 When she speaks, her words are wise, and kindness is the rule when she gives instructions.
27 She carefully watches all that goes on in her household and does not have to bear the consequences of laziness. 28 Her children stand and bless her. Her husband praises her: 29 “There are many virtuous and capable women in the world, but you surpass them all!” 30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty does not last; but a woman who fears the LORD will be greatly praised. 31 Reward her for all she has done. Let her deeds publicly declare her praise.

With all of that being said, Yes I can do it.  What am I saying! I have been doing it, with Gods help of course.  So lets continue on this road of trying to be the best we can be in all things.  So see you at the job fair-because we qualify for any job that is in need of us.

“Holy Spirit come and touch my friend today”

The devil is not playing games, and we need to be ready in and out of season.

John 10:10 “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly.

Ever had someone say that they will pray for you, and you wonder if they really are.  Or worst you say you would pray for someone and you really don’t.  I can say I  have had my share of doing that myself, lets be honest.  We need to stop that and be the prayer warriors we are called to be, the Intercessors we were made for.

Who will come with me, to the river- which is the Holy Spirit-Gods full presence. Do we really pray with passion, do we really pray fervently for our brothers and sisters in Christ.  But more importantly for the lost.  Clear out your mind and heart and just sit quietly with the Holy Spirit.  Let’s be people who genuinely love and ask the Holy Spirit what should we pray and say on his command, as he direct us and gives us his orders from heaven.  If we just listen and put ourselves in the shoes of the one we are praying for, we will pray with a earnest heart.  No more praying from a list, to just simply cross out a name and a situation to move on to the next need.  we need to spend time just as Jesus did, we read in Luke 22:41

And He was withdrawn from them about a stone’s throw, and He knelt down and prayed,42 saying, “Father, if it is Your will, take this cup away from Me; nevertheless not My will, but Yours, be done.”  43 Then an angel appeared to Him from heaven, strengthening Him.  44 And being in agony, He prayed more earnestly. Then His sweat became like great drops of blood falling down to the ground. 45 When He rose up from prayer, and had come to His disciples, He found them sleeping from sorrow.

Elijah was another who prayed with passion to move in action in his prayer. 1Kings 17:8 Then the LORD said to Elijah,  9 “Go and live in the village of Zarephath, near the city of Sidon. There is a widow there who will feed you. I have given her my instructions.” 10 So he went to Zarephath. As he arrived at the gates of the village, he saw a widow gathering sticks, and he asked her, “Would you please bring me a cup of water?” 11 As she was going to get it, he called to her, “Bring me a bite of bread, too.” 12 But she said, “I swear by the LORD your God that I don’t have a single piece of bread in the house. And I have only a handful of flour left in the jar and a little cooking oil in the bottom of the jug. I was just gathering a few sticks to cook this last meal, and then my son and I will die.” 13 But Elijah said to her, “Don’t be afraid! Go ahead and cook that `last meal,’ but bake me a little loaf of bread first. Afterward there will still be enough food for you and your son. 14 For this is what the LORD, the God of Israel, says: There will always be plenty of flour and oil left in your containers until the time when the LORD sends rain and the crops grow again!” 15 So she did as Elijah said, and she and Elijah and her son continued to eat from her supply of flour and oil for many days. 16 For no matter how much they used, there was always enough left in the containers, just as the LORD had promised through Elijah. 17 Some time later, the woman’s son became sick. He grew worse and worse, and finally he died. 18 She then said to Elijah, “O man of God, what have you done to me? Have you come here to punish my sins by killing my son?” 19 But Elijah replied, “Give me your son.” And he took the boy’s body from her, carried him up to the upper room, where he lived, and laid the body on his bed. 1Kings 17:20 Then Elijah cried out to the LORD, “O LORD my God, why have you brought tragedy on this widow who has opened her home to me, causing her son to die?” 21 And he stretched himself out over the child three times and cried out to the LORD, “O LORD my God, please let this child’s life return to him.” 22 The LORD heard Elijah’s prayer, and the life of the child returned, and he came back to life! 23 Then Elijah brought him down from the upper room and gave him to his mother. “Look, your son is alive!” he said. 24 Then the woman told Elijah, “Now I know for sure that you are a man of God, and that the LORD truly speaks through you.”

I will pray for you today and lets not take it lightly.  Set a time to meet with the Lord and sit in your closet and pray, and when led stand up and pace back and forth in passionate prayer.  Not a prayer which is on our own agenda but directed by the Holy Spirit.  Take your bible, take your worship, and take your note book, and your tissue box and wait expecting something….

I never thought of it because I was never really in that position, but after my Dad passed away in Aug 2008, Holidays are different.  We have to get through Thanksgiving, and Christmas, and even his birthday which is after Christmas on the 31 of December.  But what is harder is that my son’s birthday is on the 30th of December too and my Dad and my son celebrated it together every year.  I am sorry if any of you are in our shoes but I can relate now.  With Christ I can do all things and that means me and my family will get through this.  Dad I know must be enjoying himself in heaven.  Wonder if they eat turkey too? lol

Just wanted to say have a good one and my prayer for you on Thanksgiving is that you cherish every moment with your family members and if you need to make peace and forgive then do it.  Life is short so make it count. From my family to yours.

But wanted to leave you with this check it out.  My Dad always had a sense of humor, and guess what so do I.

I wrote this for a friend of mine a gift for her wedding and wanted to share it with you.  All I ask of you if you like it, let me know and keep my name to it as the Author.

Destiny

“Hold my hand till the end”

When I was younger I would dream of my future.  Who would I become and what was ahead of me.  I always knew God had a big plan for my life, but who would be in it? and who would share it with me.  Who would be the man of my destiny.

Who would take a walk with me.  Who would kiss me on my cheek in the morning and who would share the joy of laughter with me.  Who would hold me forever and tell me everything would be alright, even though sometimes it would not be.

Who would wipe my face when I cried, and who would come to my rescue when I call.  Who would rub my forehead at night and smile at me as I would fall asleep with his face on my mind.

Who would be my best friend, my partner that would always be around.  Who would be that special someone to pray with, and believe in Gods awesome gospel.  Who would lay hands on me when I would become sick and believe for a miracle with me.  Who would share his shoulder for me to cry on, and who would let me bury my head on his chest , just so I could feel safe and protected.

Who would be the one?  Who is the one God has for me.  Who has God made a union in heaven with me, even before I was born.  Who is this man that is destined to be with me.  I know he and I must be one, because Lord you have taken apart of his rib and created me.  Who is this man who can not breath like me until we are one.

Who would be the lover of my heart.  Who would stand with me in all my toughest challenges and persevere.   Who would pray, worship and study the word with me, and experience the Holy Spirit.  Who is that man I would follow and support him in telling the world about Jesus.  Who’s head would I be the crown of precious jewels on.  Who is that man.

Who would I lay with to bring forth the birth of his flesh and mine combined.  Who would care for and teach and love his own, and prepare them for their future with Jesus Christ and sending them into their destiny.  Who would it be Lord.  Who would it be Lord the “Man of my Destiny”

Who would love me when I don’t look as nice as I used to look.  Who would love me in my anger when things don’t go right especially when I messed up.  Who would help me through the toughest times of my life.  Who would be there, who would stay forever….

Who would be with me when all the children are gone and we are just in our home alone.  Who would eat a small dinner, and go grocery for two now,  who would it be.

Who would stay with me when I would be to weak to travel, run, or have a nice dinner anymore.  Who would it be.  Who would be with me in the hospital when I fight for my last breath.  Who would wipe my head for the last time.  Who would say everything is gonna be alright as I go on to be with my creator in heaven.  Who would that be.  Who would dare to be with me in my life Lord who would it be.

Who would hold my hand till the end.  Who would it be?  Would it be you.

By

C. Apana