Hoildays are Hard

Author: C.APANA  //  Category: Thanksgiving

I never thought of it because I was never really in that position, but after my Dad passed away in Aug 2008, Holidays are different.  We have to get through Thanksgiving, and Christmas, and even his birthday which is after Christmas on the 31 of December.  But what is harder is that my son’s birthday is on the 30th of December too and my Dad and my son celebrated it together every year.  I am sorry if any of you are in our shoes but I can relate now.  With Christ I can do all things and that means me and my family will get through this.  Dad I know must be enjoying himself in heaven.  Wonder if they eat turkey too? lol

Just wanted to say have a good one and my prayer for you on Thanksgiving is that you cherish every moment with your family members and if you need to make peace and forgive then do it.  Life is short so make it count. From my family to yours.

But wanted to leave you with this check it out.  My Dad always had a sense of humor, and guess what so do I.

Destiny

Author: C.APANA  //  Category: Godly man

I wrote this for a friend of mine a gift for her wedding and wanted to share it with you.  All I ask of you if you like it, let me know and keep my name to it as the Author.

Destiny

“Hold my hand till the end”

When I was younger I would dream of my future.  Who would I become and what was ahead of me.  I always knew God had a plan big plan for my life, but who would be in it, and who would share it with me.  Who would be the man of my destiny.

Who would take a walk with me.  Who would kiss me on my cheek in the morning and who would share the joy of laughter with me.  Who would hold me forever and tell me everything would be alright, even though sometimes it would not be.

Who would wipe my face when I cried, and who would come to my rescue when I called.  Who would rub my forehead at night and smile at me as I would fall asleep with his face on my mind.

Who would be my best friend, my partner that would always be around.  Who would be that special someone to pray with, and believe in Gods awesome gospel.  Who would lay hands on me when I would become sick and believe for a miracle.  Who would share his shoulder for me to cry on, and who would let me bury my head on his chest , just so I could feel safe and protected.

Who would be the one?  Who is the one God has for me.  Who has God made a union in heaven with me, even before I ws born.  Who is this man that is destined to be with me.  I know he and I must be one, because Lord you have taken apart of his rib and created me.  Who is this man who can not breath like me until we are one.

Who would be the lover of my heart.  Who would stand with me in all my toughest challenges and preserver.  Who would pray, worship and study the word with me, and experience the Holy Spirit.  Who is that man I would follow and support him in telling the world about Jesus.  Who’s head would I be the crown of precious jewels on.  Who is that man.

Who would I lay with to bring forth the birth of his flesh and mine combined.  Who would care for and teach and love his own, and prepare them for their future with Jesus Christ and sending them into their destiny.  Who would it be Lord.  Who would it be Lord the “Man of my Destiny”

Who would love me when I don’t look as nice as I used to look.  Who would love me in my anger when things don’t go right especially when I messed up.  Who would help me through the toughest times of my life.  Who would be there, who would stay forever….

Who would be with me when all the children are gone and we are just in our home alone.  Who would eat a small dinner, and go grocery for two now,  who would it be.

Who would stay with me when I would be to weak to travel, run, or have a nice dinner anymore.  Who would it be.  Who would be with me in the hospital when I fight for my last breath.  Who would wipe my head for the last time.  Who would say everything is gonna be alright as I go on to be with my creator in heaven.  Who would that be.  Who would dare to be with me in my life Lord who would it be.

Who would hold my hand till the end.  Who would it be?  Would it be you.

By

C. Apana

Silence the Enemy!!

Author: C.APANA  //  Category: Children's Worship

From the lips of children and infants you have ordained praise* because of your enemies, to silence the foe and the avenger.
~Psalms 8:2
Do we really understand the meaning of that scripture? We didn’t until we asked the Holy Spirit to reveal it to us and over time the revelation came and it was this. When children begin to praise they are already in heaven and they are sending out spiritual silencers to our enemies. They may not be aware of what they are doing but automatically something happens. Physically their bodies are on earth, but spiritually their praises enters the throne room of God. As anointed arrows of holy fire descends back down into the earth’s atmosphere on our behalf to silence the enemy and his strategic tactics against us. Silence the enemy! Meaning he can’t give out orders to kill, steal, and destroy. The praises of the innocent is very powerful to where it can bring us to a higher level of miracles signs and wonders, we tap into the possibilities of God, because God has used the children to move aside the hindrance for us to have an open heaven above us. I know it’s crazy, just to think that our children can go to battle for us adults and the world.

But God hath chosen the foolish things of the world to confound the wise; and God hath chosen the weak things of the world to confound the things which are mighty;
~1Corithains 1:27

Also if we look up the word “Ordained” in the dictionary it is interesting how powerful that word is. One meaning is to appoint with ministerial or priestly authority; confer holy orders. To authorize as a rabbi fixed or established especially by order or command; “at the time appointed (or the appointed time”) appointed, decreed, ordained, and prescribed.

“Do you hear what these children are saying?” they asked him. “Yes,” replied Jesus, “have you never read,“ ‘From the lips of children and infants you have ordained praise’?”
~Matthew 21:16

“Yalad” Nine Days

Author: C.APANA  //  Category: Beheaded, Jesus' decendent

Lady Jane Grey

I got up this morning and was truly listening and waiting on the Holy Spirit to speak to me and he did.  I stumbled on Lady Jane Grey a story in history that caught my attention.  To give you a brief summary of who this fifteen year old Queen of England (for only nine days) was. Her story saddens my heart but discovered two special words which was Immediate descent.

How does this have to do with anything concerning God speaking to me, you may ask.  Just trust me and follow along like I did.  So I felt a little rusty in my history so I google her and got the details.  Just in case you may have no clue on who I am talking about, I did say I would give a brief summary so click on below and after you have watched this clip we can continue on.

So after seeing that.  How can a young fifteen year old walk to her death with such grace and willingness to humble her self and to even forgive the man that was about to chop her head off. Even to say the final words that my Jesus said when he died on the cross. Which was, “Into thy hands I commit my soul.”  Even with that to add, her young lover was beheaded as well.

Anyway when researching her story the number 9 was so important to me, because it was popping out at me when reading she was Queen for only nine days.  So I then asked the Holy Spirit what about that number.  I knew biblically what that number nine stood for but I googled it anyway.  I came across a web page that was about Bible-Science and there were numbers from 1-14 and the title for the number 9. was (Age of the Earth—What Does Begat Mean?).  So I got to search more looking for that word (begat) meant leading me to the word Yalad.” Please stick with me it gets interesting.

The word used is yalad,” and means “fathered.” It has been argued that it need not refer only to the immediately next generation. The argument has some relevance in the Creationist hypothesis.

“The Hebrew word yalad for begat means “fathered” and usually indicates a direct one-generation relationship. According to Strong’s concordance there are over 500 occurrences of the Hebrew word yalad, 58 of which are in the Genesis 5 & 11 chronogenealogies. Yalad is translated 201 times by some form of begat, 220 times by some form of bear or birth, and 83 times by various other words like bring forth. In the vast majority of cases yalad indicates an immediate descendant. There are a few cases among the 500 in which yalad might have a broader meaning than immediate descendant, but 98% of the time it definitely means immediate descendant.”

Strong’s #3205: yalad (pronounced yaw-lad’)
a primitive root; to bear young; causatively, to beget; medically, to act as midwife; specifically, to show lineage:–bear, beget, birth((-day)), born, (make to) bring forth (children, young), bring up, calve, child, come, be delivered (of a child), time of delivery, gender, hatch, labour, (do the office of a) midwife, declare pedigrees, be the son of, (woman in, woman that) travail(-eth, -ing woman).

Now looking at the number nine from the bible it would referrers to Nine: Fruit of the Spirit; gifts of the Spirit; finality; harvest; fullness of development. (Matt. 27: 45; Judges 4: 1-3; Gal. 5: 22-23; 1 Cor. 12: 4-11)

Now lets try to pull all of this together.  Lady Jane was in representation of this generation, not looking at the physical realms age but the spiritual realms age.  Like her we are a generation living out the nine fruits of the spirit which is Love,Joy,Peace,Long-suffering,Kindness,Goodness,Faithfulness,Gentleness,Self-control.  Her humbleness, her young age of freshness.  Her  attitude of forgiveness right at the time of her death, she could have been bitter and angry but she chose-yes she chose to be humble and forgiving.

Bringing us to the last  research of that word “Yalad- to bring forth to labour-travailing in the spiritual realm and see a manifestation in the physical realm.  To be a father, or a mother in this case.  Her attitude brings a immediate action of her being part of Jesus’ decent.  Yes her attitude caused a reaction of her immediate adoption, to bring forth children.

You may be getting ready to be pregnant right now in your spirit and in nine months you will give birth to something that will reflect the bloodline of Christ, his heart beat.  So with all that being said, keep on listening the Lord is speaking, your ministry is on it’s way to you for God kingdom.  Congratulations!  Let me know when you give birth!!

Now coming back to Lady Jane Grey, God used that story to show me what he is talking about in this season we are in now….. So hope I gave a little lesson today that will help you to recognize some of the ways God speaks to us…. I will leave you with this clip, let it be like Jesus-Lady Jane to give her life, dieing to rise a new with Christ today.  Sometimes you have to do something that you are so afraid of, but do it afraid anyway, do it in faith, that God will meet you there…

Around the World

Author: C.APANA  //  Category: THE WORLD

Hey everybody………………Thank you for stopping by my page where I can unwind and just be myself.  But most of all I want to say thanks to the many of you who stop by and read.  A shout out to all my friends around the world.

Turkey, Iran Islamic Republic, Czech Republic, Sweden, China, Africa, Japan osaka, United Kingdom Australia, Germany, Canada, South Africa, Russian Federation, Singapore, Bulgaria, Guam, Netherlands, Sweden, Denmark, Indonesia, India, New Zealand, Ireland, Finland, Luxembourg, Hungary and the Good ole United States of America.  Also Philippines, United Arab Emirates, Togo, Taiwan, Mauritius, European, ALBANIA (AL)
City: Tiranë, PORTUGAL (PT) City: Lisbon, EUROPEAN UNION (EU)Country: INDONESIA (ID) City: Jakarta Country: GERMANY (DE) City: Dusseldorf Country: PAKISTAN (PK) City: Karachi.Country: CANADA (CA)
City: HALIFAX, NS Country: SAUDI ARABIA (SA) City: (Unknown city)

Psalms 24:1 A psalm of David. The earth is the LORD’s, and everything in it. The world and all its people belong to him.

Need a laugh? I promise you will!

Author: C.APANA  //  Category: More laughter

Sometime we just need to laugh, and what is amazing in this video that you are about to see is not in English, but you will laugh because you will understand.  Also if you watch it twice you will actually know what is happening.  I sure got it, I was up late watching it and laughing to myself.  God wants us to laugh sometimes and share it with others.  Enjoy

Genesis 21:6 And Sarah declared, “God has brought me laughter! All who hear about this will laugh with me.

This next one is cute, but I just felt led to share it also.  Hope you are still laughing, dust the heaviness off of your shoulders today, and just laugh..

This may have given us a good laugh, but researching more online we have discovered Erick the tv host lost his job.

“Worshipers” the root of David

Author: C.APANA  //  Category: Parents

Within the last year, my Dad and Mom would go shopping and have a fun day after church almost every Sunday.  I would call them on my cell and they would be laughing and acting silly.  They would go to the indoor swap meet and hang out.  Dad and Mom would fall in love with animal pictures especially the ones from Africa like the lion’s above.  They were acting like a couple of high school kids, which was so cute, they were so happy.  When Dad passed away in August 9, 2008 it felt like the two really had become one.  I only see my Mom around like that lion now but wish Dad was around too.  But then a revelation came to me, and he said, “In that picture it is I (God) and the other lion is Mom & Dad.”  The Lion that is facing the side view is us and the frontal view is Him-God with all his glory.  To look at him would be a consuming fire, as his glory pressing down like fire on his head.  Let God be the Lion of Judah in our lives, I know Dad and Mom did and you can see it on my mom today even after my Dad’s passing.  Today I just felt so lonely for my Dad and needed to write about him, hope you didn’t mind.

Revelation 5:5 But one of the elders said to me, “Do not weep. Behold, the Lion of the tribe of Judah, the Root of David, has prevailed to open the scroll and to loose its seven seals.“

Dad & Mom

Dad & Mom

I will be adding more in the days to come, so stay tuned………

Attn. Christians Obama? or Mccain?

Author: C.APANA  //  Category: We want a King! Are we sure?

I just thought this would be interesting to post and see if I get a response.  Because really I wasn’t getting involved but how could I not.  As a Christian-to be Christ like we have to know where we stand and what God wants, not what we want.  Why is it important for what each candidate stand for? Really?  Why don’t we wipe the board clean, and close our eyes go to our prayer closet ask God and wait on the Holy Spirit to show us a face on whom to vote for and then vote.  Do we really trust God?  Could we really do that!  Tell me why you feel Obama or McCain should be president?  And why they have gotten your vote.  For me and my house we will serve the Lord.  Not our friends view, or our brothers and sisters views, political analysis views, or popular views, but Gods view.  So be honest and lets talk what do you think from your Christian view.

Sarah Palin on the other hand is a sister in Christ we are hearing more and more everyday, what role does she really play in all of this.  Who can run this country?  Who can really give some biblical wisdom here, so with that said see you at the vote.

Who Opened That Door?!!

Author: C.APANA  //  Category: Powerless prayer

Ever tried to run away from a storm?  I have and it is very hard because it is all around you.  Back in 1992 on the island of Kauai a massive storm system was in our path building and growing up to be Hurricane strength winds from 150 mph and gust up to 175 mph.  The only way we could be safe from this storm was to get inside and close the door and ride it out until it was over.  That storm came and devastated the islands, it was declared a nature disaster.  We hid in a shoe closet (all nine of us) for about four-five hours.  The door was closed and we worshiped until it was over. Genesis 4:7 If you do what is right, will you not be accepted? But if you do not do what is right, sin is crouching at your door; it desires to have you, but you must master it.

My son was sick and had a reacquiring fever, he was taking all his medicine.  I prayed and my husband prayed and it kept on coming back.  The more I prayed the louder my son would scream, then I knew this must have been spiritual and we were being attacked. I must have hit the hammer on the nail.  I asked the Holy Spirit what was going on.  At first he did not answer, and I was feeling kind of defeated, and felt my prayers weren’t being answered, I did feel defeated.

I was holding my son and pacing back and forth in the loft, and as I was praying in my heavenly language, I could hear, someone in my room shushing me.  I stopped and looked towards my room and continued to pray and prayed even louder.  It was three o’clock am in the morning and everyone in the house was sleeping except for my husband he was taking a shower.   Again I heard it, “Sshh!” but this time I got mad, and started to switch into warfare prayer.

Who has the right to shush me in my own home?  Especially not he enemy! Romans 8:31 What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us?

I started to clean out my house spiritually, commanding anything that is not of Jesus Christ to leave my home in Jesus’ Name!  My Husband came out from the shower, and joined in.  As we were praying I could see God standing over my home, with the tip of his hands touching the tips of my roof.  Continuing in prayer I seen Jesus standing in my room with us too, but my son was still aggravated and irritated.  I asked the Lord what was wrong?  If Jesus was there in the room, why was there no peace.  Why did it feel like we had no power, in our prayer?  Why did it feel like we were getting no where.

I called on the Holy Spirit and he quickly revealed it in my mind.  It was an open vision-I seen a door and it was opened.  Then the Holy Spirit said, “You have an open door, and the devil is having a field day in your home and, he’s attacking the youngest one, your son.” And he continued to say, “YOU (Me-us) have divided me(Jesus) from your atmosphere in fully operating in which is rightfully yours.” Ephesians 4:27 and do not give the devil a foothold.
I was shocked, and told my husband what I just heard the Holy Spirit tell me.  Immediately our prayer changed from warfare prayer to humbling ourselves and asking the Lord to reveal to us what door we have opened to the enemy, what sin in our home has given the enemy the keys to have control to do what he may in our lives and over our home.

The Holy Spirit said, “Shut the door! Shut the door!”  I asked him how?  And he said, “Ask for forgiveness  for allowing sin into your lives and repent of your ways.”  We did exactly what he said, and quickly I felt the atmosphere change and THE ANNOTING WAS UNLEASHED, Jesus was able to work, the deliverer was there to deliver.  My son’s fever melted off of him and we felt the Holy Spirit move into action.  We felt the enemy leave and all that came with him scattered as well.

Many times we can stop the Lord from effectively working in our lives, and believe it or not we put up the wall, and shut the door on God.   This brings a deeper understanding to me, why bad things can happen to good people in this world.  I really believe we open doors that should be shut, in way of sin, and we also blame God for the many things we have cultivated through sin that separates us from God.

2Corinthians 6:11 O Corinthians! We have spoken openly to you, our heart is wide open.(12) You are not restricted by us, but you are restricted by your own affections. (13) Now in return for the same (I speak as to children), you also be open.  (14) Do not be unequally yoked together with unbelievers. For what fellowship has righteousness with lawlessness? And what communion has light with darkness? (15) And what accord has Christ with Belial? Or what part has a believer with an unbeliever? (16) And what agreement has the temple of God with idols? For you are the temple of the living God. As God has said: “I will dwell in them And walk among them.  I will be their God, And they shall be My people.” (17) Therefore”Come out from among them And be separate, says the Lord.  Do not touch what is unclean, And I will receive you.” (18) “I will be a Father to you, And you shall be My sons and daughters, Says the LORD Almighty.”

Today if you have sinned and feel like you are separated from the father, ask the Holy Spirit to clean out your heart, and show you what needs to be changed in your life.  Don’t allow the enemy to come up into your home and shush you.  He is on private property, and is only able to come in because you have invited him and opened that door.

SO SHUT THE DOOR!

God speaks without speaking

Author: C.APANA  //  Category: Speak Lord I'm listening

Just allowing the Holy Spirit to speak to you is like the breath of God piercing through every part of your body. I had to do some homework for our Prophetic class and this is what I got when I prayed.  The Homework assignment was to find five different times God spoke in the bible.

When I was given this homework assignment, I waited till the last minute. I wanted to see where God was going to lead me. However many things popped into my mind which was obvious of when God spoke in the bible. I felt I should challenged my self and do a little more seeking into the secret places. Excited to see what I was going to find, I enjoyed seeking it out.

“In the (his) silence God is speaking”

1. When Jesus was on the cross God spoke through nature & the dead.

Matthew 27:45-at noon, darkness fell across the whole land until three o’clock. (God spoke)
Matthew 27:46-at about three o’clock, Jesus called out with a loud voice, “[Eli, Eli, lema sabachthani?]” which means, “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?”( God did not answer)
Mat thew27:50-then Jesus shouted out again, and he gave up his spirit. (God still did not answer)
Matthew 27:51-at that moment the curtain in the Temple was torn in two, from top to bottom. The earth shook, rocks split apart, (God spoke)
Matthew 27:52 -and tombs opened. The bodies of many godly men and women who had died were raised from the dead (God spoke)

Clearly God spoke loud and clear that day when his son was dying on the cross, and to me he was saying, “This is my son, and I have given him to save the world (Me), because I love you.”

2. Another time I feel God was speaking was with Mary Magdalene, God spoke through his actions.

John 8:6 -they were trying to trap him into saying something they could use against him, but Jesus stooped down and wrote in the dust with his finger. (God spoke) God said it loud and clear of having unconditional love, and stand up for the lone-ly ones, even if you are the minority.

3. God spoke to Noah when it rained for forty days and nights and God flooded the earth for a hundred and fifty days.  God spoke through the animals actions.
Genesis 8:10-seven days later, Noah released the dove again.
Genesis 8:11-this time, toward evening, the bird returned to him with a fresh olive leaf in its beak. Noah now knew that the water was almost gone. (God spoke)
Genesis 8:12 -a week later, he released the dove again, and this time it did not come back. (God spoke)
Genesis 8:13-finally, when Noah was 601 years old, ten and a half months after the flood began, Noah lifted back the cover to look. The water was drying up.

Summary
By not saying a word, God is speaking, and it gives me a good understanding how God is speaking to us most of the time. I guess for me it is to trust him in the silence and to be ready to listen, because he is speaking loud and clear. I will leave you with one scripture that speaks to me about God speaking through his actions & examples, so that I too can do the same.

John 5:19-Jesus replied, “I assure you, the Son can do nothing by himself. He does only what he sees the Father doing. Whatever the Father does, the Son also does.

So hey what is God saying to you today?

Atmosphere Changed

Author: C.APANA  //  Category: Unity in Worship

“When I Speak Your Name”

by Elizabeth clark, Klaus Kuehn

Jesus the most beautiful name of all names,                                                                                                                                                                                   Jesus the only name that brings healing and strength,

when I speak your name, mountians move chains are loosed

when I speak your name darkness flees, it has no hold on me

Jesus the most beautiful name that I know

you’er the exalt one

Jesus you have the power alone you lift the lone-ly one Jesus

Jesus the most wonderful name of all names

Jesus the only name that brings freedom and hope

when I speak your name moutians move, chains are loosed

when I speack your name darknesss flees, it has no hold on me.

Jesus the most beautiful name that I know

you’er the exalt one

Jesus you have the power alone you lift the lone-ly one Jesus

(4 x’s) Be exalted, be exalted, be exalted higher and higher

(4 x’s) No other name no other name I know,

Thank You From My Heart

Author: C.APANA  //  Category: Thank you ICLV

It has been a very hard time this past six months.  Very emotional and very humbling, but through it all I find myself clinging and seeking more of the Lord and Holy Spirit.  Oh how I prayed that God would get us through this time in our families lives especially my precious Mama.  I gave birth to my sixth child in March, and lost my grandma in April and lost my Daddy in August of this year.

I know Jesus is holding us through it all and I just have to keep pressing on ahead, or else I would be left behind.  My Dad is already there in heaven and that’s were we are headed.  If you haven’t read before in my lates blogs.  The Holy Spirit visited me and told me don’t be still keep moving towards Jesus and follow him.  I then seen Jesus’ face and he too was crying a long with us in the lost of my Daddy, And told me that lost and hurt empty feeling I feel for my Dad was the very same lost he-Jesus feels for the lost in this world. My heart broke even more then it ever could, and I gain a understanding not even the devil could claim. I know my Dad was smiling down from heaven saying,”You Go girl”

I just wanted to say thanks to all who have prayed, gave hugs, and countless support in supplying breakfast, lunch and dinner, and everything else that was provided in this time and is still coming.  I love you International Church of Las Vegas Pastor Paul & Denise Goulet, James for the help of the sound and Ryan in all that you do, and also all Pastors and Worship team.  Also everyone who helped us in anyway…..Alex and Malia Ho, and sister Breanna love you, and to all of my Dad’s friends whom he called family-We love you for he talked about every single one of you to  me…

Love,

C.Apana

Hardcore Rockers!! What is God Doing?

Author: C.APANA  //  Category: Heavy Metal Music/Screamers
“Untouchables”

Gods Angels are Hardcore and ready to fight, and ripe off some heads to glorify Gods Kingdom.  The bible is full of hardcore stuff, we just always read the nice stuff, open your heart and mind as I did to understand. we are untouchable concerning the enemy, but very touchable concerning the Holy Spirit and our Lord Jesus Christ.

Disclaimer: Check out this website awesome art work (The bands, pictures used in this blog entry is it’s own entity.  I only used them to relate and bring revelation of the “Word of God-the Christian Gospel, bible based teachings that was given to me by the Holy Spirit.  I have no idea what kind of life style Pearl Jam leads but I am not religious, “what the enemy meant for harm it will be turned and will be used for God’s glory.  Read on and see for yourself)

Believe me I am not a hardcore rocker, heavey metal listener, maybe in my younger days, but now I am more relaxed and mellow, so this was from God and God alone, if anyone knows me I am a mother of Six children, thinking most of the angels are little babies dropping love dust on us, However my mind is being invaded by revelation..

Romans 8:28 And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them

I got up this morning and went straight to the computer like I normally do, to start writing.  I asked the Lord what should it be today.  Then it came to me, I remember when I was in Church the other day and seen a girl that I helped ministered to when she was younger.  From afar I seen her walking pass me, and all I seen were two words over her head.  The two words were Untouchable & Purity-she had grown into a fine young women of God, those words followed her as she walked.  She is not the hardcore rocker type, but I bet in the spiritual realm she can kick butt!  No really Her spiritual man is tough, why? you may wonder, because her walk is deep, and the Father’s love is evident everywhere she goes.

Read on but still keep in mind those two words (Untouchable & Purity).  I then heard a song on the TV, my younger daughter some how clicked on.  It was Pearl Jam singing a song that caught my attention.  It was called “Love reign over me”  I was touched, and it is hardcore music, but that did not stop the Lord from ministering to me today.

Religious people would be floored, but God is going after the religious spirit challenging people with strategic situations to bring them out of bondage who has hosted legalistic attitudes.  Listen and watch, they are people too, searching but God still has the last say.  Please I am not loosing my mind, but looking to love one another.  As I watched this I felt sadden to see one leg in the kingdom and one leg out, but we must love and see the Good in people to pray for their full inheritance that Gods has form them and their family.  Who knows, what takes place behind close doors, that’s why we should not judge.  God is in control.

Lyrics for song by Pearl Jam ‘Reigh o’er me”

Only love, Can make it rain, The way the beach is kissed by the sea, Only love Can make it rain Like the sweat of lovers, Laying in the fields.  Love, reign o’er me Love, reign o’er me, Rain on me, rain on me On the dry and dusty road The nights we spend apart alone I need to get back home to cool cool rain I can’t sleep and I lay and I think The night is hot and black as ink Oh God, I need a drink of cool cool rain Only love Can bring the rain That makes you yearn to the sky Only love Can bring the rain That falls like tears from on high Love reign o’er me Rain on me Over me, over me Love reign o’er me On me Love.

1Peter 4:8 Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.

James 5:18 And he prayed again, and the heaven gave rain, and the earth produced its fruit.

Psalms 136:2 Give thanks to the God of gods. His faithful love endures forever.

Pearl Jam is still being used by God to deliver his message.  Now watch this other group who say’s they are born again Christians.  They are going deeper into the enemy’s camp to win souls for Christ.

The Devil Wears Prada

Gods Love rains down, falling from heaven is”Love”

Also in the course of my search on the Internet for that song by Pearl Jam I came across “Brian Welch” the lead guitarist who formerly played for the heavy metal group “Korn,” Who apparently got saved!  Yeah born again!  In his testimony, as you will watch and see, there is a part in his video, it shows him throwing his drugs down the toilet.  To my surprise to the left of the screen, on his forearm-a word that shocked me it said, “Untouchable”. Untouchable!! Oh now even more I knew the Lord was speaking.  He was saying “UNTOUCHALBELS!” “UNTOUCHABLES!” we are them…

I know God is saying, “I don’t care how bad, how lost and how messed up you are….come and I will love you, and in my arms you are untouchable………and I can make you pure again.”  However I will send you back  into the enemy’s camp to influence others to follow you out,  into my arms, (his) Gods glory.  Jesus will be with you always, but he wants us to go to his fathers arms as well to experience Gods Glory.

Since Brian Welch found his way out, he will be used to help others do the same-and yes, by doing it with the hardcore heavy metal music he was doing……(Oh boy sepped on religous toes here…)  Do I listen to hard core heavey metal music?  Do I listen to screamer music?  Not something I prefer but…This is new generation and God is using them to be the extremist to impart his presence in a special way……..

If you read in the Word, many times when an Angel of the Lord was to show it’s self to a human they would say’ “Do not be afraid!”  Why?! Why would those be the first words that would come out of their mouths! I Don’t think they looked all cuddly and pretty with white feathers and jumping sprinkle dust.  If anything or any person or Angel was coming my way and always announced “Don’t be frightened! Don’t be afraid! It must be a warning for me-us!, they must look like something we have never seen or witnessed before.

That’s how I see this kind of music—the battle cry, the hardcore sounds that the enemy thought it would be used for him, when really it is now and always has been used for Gods purpose.  Our teens are preparing for battle-this is the sign of the times.  I am not saying that all hardcore music is good, not at all. Discernment is key concerning the end times,  and the person who God is using to deliver that sound is the main issue.  Many songs may have been written under the influence of drugs and inspired from the devil, but God still gets the glory.

We still can be touched by the Holy Spirit in many of the circluar lyrics that has been written as evidence of God doing his work in others.  Even the lost still make music that brings God’s glory no matter how far they get from our creator, they don’t know why they do what they do sometimes., because we were made in Gods image, and there is a good in them all.  Love is being unleashed and I love it, let me say that differently, Gods Love is being unleashed.

I will also leave you with one of my older blogs titled “Behind enemy lines”  Giving you a better understanding what is taking place in some of our childrens lives.  Brian Welch is a prime example of being taken out of the enemy’s camp, to only go back in and save the rest of his brothers and sisters.  Just click on this link-

“Behind Enemy Lines”

To finish, be blessed and I will leave you with a prayer.

Lord Jesus cover me and my family tonight, with your precious blood,  I call on the warrioring angels to fight on my behalf when I am not aware I am being attacked.   I declare I am covered and watched over by God and his Angels. Holy Spirit thank you for the wisdom that you have just revealed to me,  Give me discernment in all things and help me to love like you.  To open my mind and see like you.  I want to be more like you.  Let me see signs, miracles and wonders……and the next time I see a heavey metal,hardcore teen or adult’s help me to understand, for such a time as this God is doing a work we cannot understand but give us the heart to love them through it, so I can be untouchable concerning the enemy, but touchable when it concerns the you Lord jesus  In your name we pray, Amen.

Shhh!…God Whispered

Author: C.APANA  //  Category: I am not alone

When I look at this picture what do I see?  What do I think?  What is God saying to me? One thing comes to mind, and it is the secret place, where God wants to talk with me.  If only, If only I would stop talking, stop praying, and just listen for a change.

If anyone is reading tell me what you feel God is saying to you when you look at this picture.  For me he is saying “You are not alone.”

Deuteronomy 31:6 “Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the LORD your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you.”

Is anyone out there? Is anyone listening? Is anyone able to respond?  What is God saying to you share it with me today, so others can be healed, blessed and feel God breath his Holy Spirit wind on you……and me.

Lord I pray that the Holy Spirit would touch my friend today, right now.  In the name of Jesus we bind all those thoughts of feeling alone and we cast them out of our lives, we shut that door of neglect that has been a lie from the pit of hell, and we refill our hearts with the unconditional Love of Jesus Christ.  We pray for our thought pattern to line up with the Word of God, bring peace and a sound mind, so I can hear what God needs to tell me.

Amen

Go to sleep!! Already!!

Author: C.APANA  //  Category: Follow the child

Luke 18:17 I tell you the truth, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it.”

Ever felt like that, when all you can do is laugh with your siblings?  A memory that night was contagious.  They all decided to just all camp out in one room.  However the youngest was in my stomach, and the oldest was on the computer as always again.

I yelled, from downstairs, and it was quiet, then an out burst of laughter began, I said, “You better not be laughing? And you could hear them all try to hold it in, but the youngest girl was out of control.  She sparked all of them to be in laugh land she had the giggles.  I was really upset, as I walked towards the room upstairs and grabbed the belt, it was almost one hour of nonsense and I was going to put a stop to it.

I entered the room and eyes were opened big, faces looked shocked and in fear, as the belt dangled on the side of my leg.  Still behind that scared faces was a smile and laugh ready to jump right at me.  Then it happened my younger son did it, he cracked a smile and they all began to follow along and the laugh continued.

I was pregnant and tired and I did not think it was funny at all.  I swooped up the belt and got a good grip and went for them.  They began to laugh and cry at the same time.  Ever seen roaches scatter when you tried to whack them with a slipper (Flip flops-that’s what you call em.  However in Hawaii we call them slippers.)  Well it looked just like that roaches running for their lives.  I could hardly run for them I was big and pregnant and irritated.

All of them laughing and crying,  my husband came running from downstairs to save us all,as soon as he entered the door, he just began to laugh.  He said the seen was funny, a pregnant women with a belt trying to chase each child, and watching each child scared hoping to save themselves, still all of them continued in their laughingat one another because they could see each others faces, and later I found out they were laughing at me as well.

I gave up as I started to cry because I could not get a spank, they were all to fast, and my husband and eldest son at this point tried to calm me down.  My husband and eldest son tried to be sincere and remorseful of my irratation of harmones out of control, but they began to laugh and at the time I felt stupid!  I had no choice but to cry and laugh at the same time too.  Even in the midst of it all, if you think about it, I an adult still was influenced by a child, my children.  Jesus knew the effect a child can have on our hearts and that’s why it says

Luke 18:17 I tell you the truth, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it.”

Think about it, what does this really mean?  I will leave you to ponder on this verse in the bible, love on your kids today, time will pass and you won’t be able to repeat some of it.

Behind Enemy Lines

Author: C.APANA  //  Category: Teenager training

Lord deliver my teenager, ever felt that way?  Reminding the Lord of what he promised us concerning our children.  Just remember Gods is doing something in them, you just need to be there with open arms and love them through it, what ever it may be, just love them through it.  Because their hearts are broken too, but they are in training, and so are we as parents.

I just wanted to show you a clip of “The prince of Egypt”  watch what happens.  Pay close attention to the baby and where the baby goes.  Watch the mother in a time of great danger she releases her son into Gods hands.  His sister the intercessor watches every move from afar, and waits on Gods timing.

This is what is happening to our teens today, they don’t even know it, until God calls them.   He sends them into the hands of the enemy to be trained and trusted by the enemy.  In doing so the enemy takes his eye off of the world changers, the anointed ones,  as they mature into the Godly man or women he destined them to be for Gods Kingdom.

They began to hunger, for something that they are missing, their true identity.  They learn the inside ropes of how the enemy attacks and manipulates their peers to be in bondage, and then suddenly bam!  God calls, and tugges on thier hearts.  When all along God is training them from the inside. The enemy does not know what hits him because they are already in his camp and has access to the main influencers to bring salvation, in due season, suddenly they are being raised up to bring Gods people out of bondage.

Don’t worry about your teens, God has a plan and it is in the works, but be prepared for the suddenly in their lives, because God is at work in them and you, if we just trust him.

Isaiah 55:8 “My thoughts are completely different from yours,” says the Lord. “And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine.
Isaiah 55:9 For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.

The passion

Author: C.APANA  //  Category: Crying

How passionate are you for the ones you love.  We are experiencing such intense lost that it feels unbearable at times, but Jesus suffered unbearable pain for us.  Just imagine the pain that I feel for the lost of my Dad should be the pain I feel for the lost.  Lord Jesus help us to be the fishers of men, Holy Spirit help us-me to streamline all my mourning to glorify you, to build thy Kingdom and never forget, the passion leads to resurrection life.

Thy Kingdom come thy will be done

Author: C.APANA  //  Category: Meet me in heaven

Everything was going well, and it happened our healing prayer turned into a prayer of preparation for my dad.  It has taken everything within me to write this down today, the Holy Spirit led me to do so in the progression of my own healing and understanding.  Yes we mourn as Christians, but with a different understanding-but yes we still mourn. I needed to write down the final moments of when my Dad took his last breath.  I had real heavy questions and I ran to God for the real answers, and he led me to the book of Habakkuk.  This prophet went to God with difficult question and God answered them, but God came back and told him to write down the answers plainly so that all will see and understand.

As I made my way down the end of the hospital hallway of the fourth floor towards room #448, I prayed for all the others rooms that I passed by with patients who were suffering as well. I was joyful that day thinking we made a turn for the good, Dad was on the road of recovery.  However when I entered the room Dad didn’t look like Dad anymore.  He was thin, and all life was slowly leaving.  I was scared, and felt it was time to go into fight mode.  In the back of my mind I wondered where was God? Where was the Holy Spirit ?  This was not suppose to happen!!  How Could this be?  How could God take this man(my Dad) who’s mission on earth was not finished yet!!  My mind tried to focus and I tried to regain control but it was hard, my Dad was dieing, I was losing my strong tower, my best friend,  my partner in story telling, my inspiration, the person who I could always run to and he would believe in me no matter what.  He was my Daddy and I was his only little girl.  At the age of 36 I was always his little girl.

We prayed ,”Lord please,give us the direction we should go in prayer”  I cried as I stood by Dad’s bed looking at his face.  He could not blink his eyes, and he could not talk, his jaw was paralyzed.  He could only move his eye brows.  I held on to his hand and squeezed, and waited for him to respond, and he did very slowly.  I leaned over to rub my face on his hand, and tried to remember his smell and his sent.  I reached over to his forehead and kissed his head.  Mom looked from a far and teared up as my younger brother just stood by the door.  I tried to remind the Lord of all the other miracles he had done, and kept on believing for the impossible.

Suddenly the night nurse came in very alarmed saying it doesn’t look good, we were losing dad, his vital signs was very unstable, other nurses ran into the room, with other machines as they were in code emergency.  Mom held on to me crying a cry of lost.  We had no more words to pray, we had nothing to say.  I begged the Holy Spirit what to pray, and my mouth automatically opened saying,”Thy kingdom come, thy will be done”  in obedence of what was happening to us at that very moment.  My eldest brother arrived and then some of our church Pastors came by to pray with us, to encourage us and comfort us.  We needed conformation, we needed clarity in the storm that was taking place.  All of us were drained from standing in the gap for my dad.

That night was hard because the doctors came by to have us sign wavers of what needed to take place if dad needed assistance to keep him alive, It was not good.  If he stopped breathing they would have to give him CPR-and his chest would crack open, becuase it was still a freash surgery, with consideration to his ribs, he would be worst off plus other complication he would suffer, not to mention the ones he was already suffering from. All his origins were shutting down.  I COULD NOT BELIEVE THIS WAS HAPPENENING.  We ALL COULD NOT BELIEVE.

They gave Dad so much medication,I am not sure he was able to understand what was happening.  That night we had to prepare,to leave as if Dad could not make it through the night.  I cried a hurt cry, it was deep and painful.  I walked in to the room leaned over to his ear and said,” Daddy I love you, and don’t worry about me, but if God is calling you home “go Daddy Go fly high above the storm Dad fly.  I kissed his fore head and turned my head and walked out. Down the same hallway I entered in the morning praying for others.  Thinking they would call me in the night to say Daddy has left, but they didn’t he held on till morning.

I was sick in the morning (depression, withdrawls and deep hurt & pain-all I wanted to do was sleep) and mom called for me to go to the hospital, because we needed to make some decision’s and send Dad off the right way-through Praise and worship at his side.  I could not get out of bed, Mom and my brother came to get me, and told me to get ready and meet them there.  Finally my husband got me up and said , Dad would want you there, so we got the kids ready and went.  It almost felt like it was a bad dream.

At the hospital I was met by one of our pastors, and she stopped me and had a talk with me.  I was in a very sad state of mind.  She asked me to just talk with her.  I said, “if I can tell her how I really felt?”  She said yes,and I said, “I feel like the family of Lazarus, like Jesus came to late.”  Lazarus was Jesus’ family one of his own.  I kind of feel that way becuase of our family history.  I really felt like we were the Lord’s family?  (everyone should feel this way) We are favored! We were raised as worshipers, we were trained to lead people and  children into the presence of God. Every where we went we would be leaders concering worship and obedennt servants.  We served in ministry all of our lives and Dad was the head of it all, Dad and mom trained us and we were faithful in all that we did concerning the Lord.  I felt  forgotten, I felt lost, I just wanted to run and hide in a cave but then I was reminded in the word “Jesus wept” too.  I could feel at that moment Jesus was holding me.  The Pastor hugged me and she sent me to my Dad’s room, to help prepare my Dad’s passing into thy father’s hands.  ”Thy Kingdom come, thy will be done”

John 11:32 Then, when Mary came where Jesus was, and saw Him, she fell down at His feet, saying to Him, “Lord, if You had been here, my brother would not have died.”
John 11:33 Therefore, when Jesus saw her weeping, and the Jews who came with her weeping, He groaned in the spirit and was troubled.
John 11:34 And He said, “Where have you laid him?” They said to Him, “Lord, come and see.”
John 11:35 Jesus wept.

Dad was hanging on a tread, when I got to the room, My husband and my mother, my two brothers and my sister in-law was there and it came to be he was being kept alive by strong medication, and he aparently had another stroke, we were told it would probably be about half an hour to forty five minutes for him to go and we could let him go without any pain.  The family felt it was best to let Daddy go home to be with God. We had all the grandchildren come in to see their papa.  We had a stool so they could stand on and kiss their papa and say their goodbyes.  Tears flooded all their faces, and it welled up in bright red as they felt the lost of their papa’s soul -his smile, his touch that was leaving us.  From the oldest to the youngest they new it was serious.  They all wept, the sound of children weeping ingulfed the room as it called the prescence of the Holy Spirit, it was hot, and it was special, it was a deep sensation of pain.  We agreed in releasing Dad in a room full of worship, so we began to do just that.  My husband and my eldest son began to play the guitar, taking turns as we all began to sing.

The nurses came into the room to unhook my Dad’s iv lines and other things that was keeping him alive.  He began to breathe on his own.  Nurses came in and they cried as they stood in awe of us worshiping my Dad into the thrown room of heaven’s gates.  We cried as we worshiped.  One hour passed, then another hour passed, and then another hour, we worshiped for more then four hours. Then we sat in silence and began to talk of my Dad of all the good times we had with him, and we even began to laugh because he was a joker, and we noticed the more we laughed, and talked about the good times his vitals went down, and he was on his way to heaven.  Then we stopped, and it was silent again.  Mom held on to Daddy’s head, as we his children stood at his bed side all around the bed.  We started to talk again and reminisce of Dad while growing up and Dad’s vitals went really low this time, we continued, and then it happened.  Dad took his last breath, it was finished. My eldest brother said all he could see in the room was the color purple.  Mom held tight to Dad’s head, as she stood on the stool, touching his face, and even wiping his tears that came from his eyes.  She fixed his hair and kissed his lips, and cheek.  No one said a word.

We felt such a silence, heaven was there.  The room was hot, and all I could do was cry, I could hardly breathe, I looked around the room and seen the rest of my family, the same way as I.  I looked out the window and the sun was going down and it was something I never experienced before.  I later realized we had a touch of Christ the touch of Jesus himself.  I thought it was heaven but it was not it was Jesus’Heart.  My heart was so broken I could not even stand.  I felt Jesus’ heart, how he felt for all of the lost souls that still needed to hear the news-the goodnews of the Gospel. Then I felt a strange kind of Joy that Dad was where we all wanted to be, and that was in heaven.  We all hovered over Dad in a huddle kind of way and took a breathe together to release our cares in Gods hands.  Mom grabbed the white sheet and laid it over my Dad’s body, and we began to take off the pictures of our family off the wall, and began to take off the many scriptures mom placed on the wall as well.  We gathered all our stuff and said our goodbyes and walked out the door together, not leaving Dad behind, but to follow him up a head.

Room #448 was the room where I seen my Dad fight for thrity days.  A strong man who was not going to give up unless the Lord stepped in to claim him home, in which he did.

August 9, 2008 is considered to us a day of graduation. At 7:40 p.m. Clyde R. Vegas was kissed by the presence of God and departed from us on a new journey into the gates of heaven. Preparing the way for the rest of his family members who witnessed this awesome miracle take place, conquering death into the fathers hands of a resurrected life.

I don’t have all my question answered but, as I wait on God he is giving me more understanding of this season in my life.  I am processing everything in a way of needing to have full understanding of the WORD TO SHARE WITH OTHERS someday. The flesh is weak but the spirit is strong.  I need to be transparent, I need to be me.  If Christ wept, I too will weep.

Graduation Day “Daddy”

Author: C.APANA  //  Category: Graduation day "Daddy"

Graduation day “Daddy”

I love you Daddy

August 9, 2008 marks a day I will never forget. I thought “We” fought the good fight, however the Holy Spirit gave me a better understanding of Daddy fighting the good fight. We were there to be witnesses to tell the story of a King-my Dad, but in the presence of a thousands kings Lord-Jesus you are still my one desire. Oh yes we morn but in a different way, tears of sorrow and joy mixed brings a balance of comfort from the Holy Spirit and more understanding that is continually allowing us to move on.

2 Timothy 4:5 But you should keep a clear mind in every situation. Don’t be afraid of suffering for the Lord. Work at bringing others to Christ. Complete the ministry God has given you.2 Timothy 4:6 As for me, my life has already been poured out as an offering to God. The time of my death is near.2 Timothy 4:7 I have fought a good fight, I have finished the race, and I have remained faithful.2 Timothy 4:8 And now the prize awaits me-the crown of righteousness that the Lord, the righteous Judge, will give me on that great day of his return. And the prize is not just for me but for all who eagerly look forward to his glorious return.

No short cuts

Author: C.APANA  //  Category: perseverance

It has been thirty days today since my Dad’s surgery and it  has not been easy.  He’s been through a lot, and we have been  challenged with so many things(Our faith level).  My younger  brother posted in his blog. We are over comers, born and raised,  yes it is true.

Please don’t misunderstand me, we are not super humans,  but solely dependent in Christ alone.  We cry, and break, and  wonder and sometimes are stricken with fear,  but one thing I  do know is we keep on pursuing God, perseverance.

Each day we would come home from the hospital, it would be,  good-news today, and bad news the next concerning Dad’s health.  Following the leading of the Holy Spirit was pivotal in Victory.  An emotional roller coaster flooded me and we needed peace in  it all.

Two days ago, Dad actually opened his eyes (after heat  sergery, secondary exploratory sergery,  x-rays and probes and  blood transfusion, to pain medications and everything you can  think of, he was drained, he has lost a lot of weight but “New wine skins-God is giving him new wine skins”) and he was looking very discouraged, healthy and still getting better, but he looked like he was throwing in the towel.  I cried out to the Lord, “What else Lord you promised me-us, not more then we could handle”.  Sometimes it just feels to much.

That night as I was sleeping, I was awaken, by the Holy Spirit and he said, “No Short Cuts on this Honey Girl” I just cried and and looked up to heaven (basically chin up, daughter of the king remember who you are in Christ-Chin up, the Holy Spirit said again) My whining cry of sorrow turned into a cry of trust tears rolled down my face.  Because that’s what my daddy called me growing up, “Honey girl”  Don’t you give up now, no short cuts.  The lord told me pick up your sword and I will do the rest.

This brings me to the story of Moses;

Exodus 13:17 When Pharaoh finally let the people go, God did not lead them on the road that runs through Philistine territory, even though that was the shortest way from Egypt to the Promised Land. God said, “If the people are faced with a battle, they might change their minds and return to Egypt.” Exodus 13:18 So God led them along a route through the wilderness toward the Red Sea, and the Israelites left Egypt like a marching army.

Exodus 13:19 Moses took the bones of Joseph with him, for Joseph had made the sons of Israel swear that they would take his bones with them when God led them out of Egypt-as he was sure God would. Exodus 13:20 Leaving Succoth, they camped at Etham on the edge of the wilderness. Exodus 13:21 The Lord guided them by a pillar of cloud during the day and a pillar of fire at night. That way they could travel whether it was day or night. Exodus 13:22 And the Lord did not remove the pillar of cloud or pillar of fire from their sight.

If we keep on reading on we come to the part in the bible, Pharaoh pursued them towards the red sea

Exodus 14:13 But Moses told the people, “Don’t be afraid. Just stand where you are and watch the Lord rescue you. The Egyptians that you see today will never be seen again.
Exodus 14:14 The Lord himself will fight for you. You won’t have to lift a finger in your defense!”

Exodus 14:20 The cloud settled between the Israelite and Egyptian camps. As night came, the pillar of cloud turned into a pillar of fire, lighting the Israelite camp. But the cloud became darkness to the Egyptians, and they couldn’t find the Israelites.

Exodus 14:21 Then Moses raised his hand over the sea, and the Lord opened up a path through the water with a strong east wind. The wind blew all that night, turning the seabed into dry land. Exodus 14:22 So the people of Israel walked through the sea on dry ground, with walls of water on each side!

This message was really for me, and my family, but God never uses anything just for ourselves, but use it for everyone who needs it at the time.  Yes No short cuts “Honey Girl”  Just follow the Cloud & fire (Holy Spirit) and he will lead you.  Even if you think your back is facing the wall-red sea.  Gods glory will be there if we continue to trust him, and sometimes put our sword up, towards heaven so he will do the fighting for us.  AND SET OUR ENEMY’S IN A STATE OF CONFUSSION

Exodus 14:23 Then the Egyptians-all of Pharaoh’s horses, chariots, and charioteers-followed them across the bottom of the sea. Exodus 14:24 But early in the morning, the Lord looked down on the Egyptian army from the pillar of fire and cloud, and he threw them into confusion. Exodus 14:25 Their chariot wheels began to come off, making their chariots impossible to drive. “Let’s get out of here!” the Egyptians shouted. “The Lord is fighting for Israel against us!”

Be encouraged today my friends, if God did it for them he will do it for us, God is not a lier, he is the delieverer!  Leaving you with this song.  Miracles….When you believe.

“Your Breakthrough is coming”

Author: C.APANA  //  Category: breakthrough

If I have invited you to my site yesterday, God wanted me to tell you something very special.  You are important to him and he loves you and don’t worry everything is gonna be alright.

Isaiah 45:12 I am the one who made the earth and created people to live on it. With my hands I stretched out the heavens. All the millions of stars are at my command.

Mat 6:25 “Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing?

“Your breakthrough is coming! Your breakthrough is coming! Your breakthrough is coming!”  He’s got you safe in his hands.  The situation may be bigger then you but never bigger then God.

Against the odds

Author: C.APANA  //  Category: Never give up

Ever felt that’s the way God intended us to be like? Mar 10:27 But Jesus looked at them and said, “With men it is impossible, but not with God; for with God all things are possible.” Against the odds, swim up stream, against the current to get to the nice pond on top to lay our eggs and multiply.  If I am not mistaken salmon would lay about 5000 eggs.  (They will know if I am Christian by my fruit) “Mark 4:20 But these are the ones sown on good ground, those who hear the word, accept it and bear fruit: some thirty fold, some sixty, and some a hundred.”

After laying eggs the salmon would die (crucify our flesh Lord-sometimes we get big headed thinking what “We” have done- “Oh no wrong attitude”)  The eggs come out a bright orange-fiery red (Prophetically those colors mean something)  Anyone reading with Spiritual understanding yet-hope so?  Sometimes the Holy Spirit will cause you to go up stream-”Push! Keep trying! Keep believing! Keep standing in faith! Do not give up! Your almost there! Hold on to the word! Keep praying! Keep worshiping! Keep moving in life, don’t stop!”

Two by two Mark 6:7 And He called the twelve to [Himself], and began to send them out two [by] two, and gave them power over unclean spirits. So when you have roughed out the white water rapids, you will experience the peace to where you can give birth(not minus birthing pains of course) and after that you would experience a time of refection that causes you to die to yourself again to make sure you give the glory to whom it is due.

God is always making sure we know who we are and who he is, we are his.  Sometimes we get so wrapped up in the glory of what God is doing through us our flesh may get caught in taking some of it for ourselves, when that happens we are in trouble.  Crucify our flesh daily Lord, remember our source, our place.

Friends I am encouraged by the response I have been getting for the invites I have posted to other sites, in hopes you would join me in prayer for my Dad and my family.  I have to mention I have stepped on many toes along the way of my invitations, but my invites is truly that, (an invite) and I really do read the blogs that I visit.  Like Rev. Josh said, in a comment “we are strong together”.. I too believe that.  Lets swim up river my friends.. Who will go with me….

Check this out do not let nothing hold you back, these trout are jumping up out of their man made pond to be challenged to survive (think of the natural abilities God has blessed us with, we were made to jump)  They go towards the pipe to jump in and swim against the water flow to get out of the pond.  We were made to be challenged and concur.  Lets go….

Oops,Umbrella broken? again!

Author: C.APANA  //  Category: God's Covering?

In the midst of all that we are going through revelation falls out of the sky like rain. Hopefully you are not covered with an umbrella you will miss it.

When I was younger, I heard a preaching of being covered by God like being under his umbrella so to speak. Never in the Word did I Find this to be true, but it is a good symbol of trying to understand Gods covering. I used to teach it too, in our youth class back in the day.  However think about it a umbrella? We describe God as a umbrella?  Ok, enough of that.

I know in my experience with umbrellas they don’t make it to withstand a whole lot. The wind will turn it inside out, making you look more stupid then ever, wire hanging out, that could cut you, your hair gets all messed up, wet and sticky and if you have product in it even worst.  Hard rain will break the umbrella, (take it from me born on Oahu, and raised on Kauai- it rained almost everyday “forget the umbrella!!”) it can leak and only your head is protected, if the wind wouldn’t destroy it first.

So what am I saying?  Well the bible teaches us that rain was never considered a weapon the enemy would use to attack you with.  (Now don’t get all uptight with me and say what about floods and bad things that happen in that kind of situation-Lets look higher then that)  because the enemy would use other things from a distance to attack you with.

If you use the umbrella you will miss the revelation. One drop of Holy Spirit rain can be life changing experience, which leads to a habitation-lifestyle for you. Being under Gods covering is to take off the covering. Relationship friends, it is to touch the Holy Spirit as he touches you and it is to see him as he sees you, and it is to smell him as he smells you, and it is to hear him as he hears you, and it is to taste him as he tastes you.

Transparency is transparency THAT BRINGS TO INTAMACY. Covering is controlling, and fearing of showing your true self…………… We need Gods open heaven on us, all that he has for us. That why it says in the bible

Psalms 91:1 HE who dwells in the secret place of the Most High Shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.  Psalms 91:2 I will say of the LORD, “He is my refuge and my fortress;
My God, in Him I will trust.”

We will hide under his shadow, His shadow!! His shadow, so we would be ready for an out POURING OF THE HOLY SPIRIT. It says in Act 2:2 And suddenly there came a sound from heaven, as of a rushing mighty wind, and it filled the whole house where they were sitting. Act 2:3 Then there appeared to them divided tongues, as of fire, and one sat upon each of them.  Act 2:4 And they were all filled with the Holy Spirit and began to speak with other tongues, as the Spirit gave them utterance.

I never seen rain come to me from the side to my heart it would fall straight on top of my head. It has to hit my mind first that’s why it say in the bible the renewing of our mind Eph 4:23 and be renewed in the spirit of your mind,Eph 4:24 and that you put on the new man which was created according to God, in true righteousness and holiness. We really don’t have trouble with our hearts it is really our minds.  The fire that day of Pentecost the fire was on their heads.  Open your mind to receive what is about to happen, in your lives if you do God can blow you away.  I’m ready for it are you?  Burn away your old way of thinking, get ready for the new….

Walk by faith

Author: C.APANA  //  Category: Push! Push Dont' give up!

(Part 3of 3 “Lord don’t take my daddy&#